What? Why, yes, I know this thread ain't going to be popular. Still, nice to have it lying around, no?
So, this thread is to do with all things poetical. (And as of Reply 155, lyrics as well, it would seem!) Want help writing a poem? Ask here. Written one? Post it here. Want to discuss one? Post it here. Have a favourite one? Post i....
You get the picture. To start off, I'll post my favourite poem: The Listeners, by Walter de la Mare.
‘Is there anybody there?’ said the Traveller,
Knocking on the moonlit door;
And his horse in the silence champed the grasses
Of the forest’s ferny floor:
And a bird flew up out of the turret,
Above the Traveller’s head:
And he smote upon the door again a second time;
‘Is there anybody there?’ he said.
But no one descended to the Traveller;
No head from the leaf-fringed sill
Leaned over and looked into his grey eyes,
Where he stood perplexed and still.
But only a host of phantom listeners
That dwelt in the lone house then
Stood listening in the quiet of the moonlight
To that voice from the world of men:
Stood thronging the faint moonbeams on the dark stair,
That goes down to the empty hall,
Hearkening in an air stirred and shaken
By the lonely Traveller’s call.
And he felt in his heart their strangeness,
Their stillness answering his cry,
While his horse moved, cropping the dark turf,
’Neath the starred and leafy sky;
For he suddenly smote on the door, even
Louder, and lifted his head:—
‘Tell them I came, and no one answered,
That I kept my word,’ he said.
Never the least stir made the listeners,
Though every word he spake
Fell echoing through the shadowiness of the still house
From the one man left awake:
Ay, they heard his foot upon the stirrup,
And the sound of iron on stone,
And how the silence surged softly backward,
When the plunging hoofs were gone.
If posting a favourite/favoured poem, giving the author would help me to accredit it properly.
All poems so far posted. Those written by the poster will be noted with a "Written by himselfthemself"(Because I realised the gender problem writing "himself" poses):
Edmus
Written by themself:
Y'all ain't never seen
Such nature as in the places I've been
Babbling brooks,
and flittering finches
Hidden nooks
and noble beeches
So shut y'all face hole.
Azkanan
Edited by themself:
"A dwarf, a dwarf,
My kingdom for a dwarf!"
Cried the lord of the high dusty hall,
Little did he know though, this lord of the high dusty hall,
That a coarse dwarf called Porf lived in the high dusty hall,
Below the throne with a crone called Eeborf.
"The king," said Eeborf, "Calls for dwarf,
You should call all the dwarfs who built the high dusty hall."
Porf wrinkled his nose like crushed in pantyhose,
His beard like black bows and cheeks of rose.
"I'll call the dwarfs," said Porf, "and call the lord of the high dusty hall."
So Porf climbed to the roof with mountain goat hoofs
and from a horn was borne a call across the lands of Gorn,
"THE KING!" HE CALLED, "THE KING CALLS FOR A DWARF!
I AM PORF THE DWARF WHO LIVES UNDER THE HIGH DUSTY HALL,
UNDER THE THRONE WITH A CRONE CALLED EEBORF,
I CALL ALL DWARVES IN THE LANDS OF GORN,
TO COME TO THE HIGH DUSTY HALL TO ANSWER THE CALL!"
And in the high dusty hall sat the king of Gorn,
And much did his eyes not bore as Porf the Dwarf
and Eeborf the crone walked in alone.
"My king," kneeled Porf the Dwarf in front of the throne,
"I am torn and forlorn," he said with a tear of lead,
"I am the last dwarf, my kin are all dead."
Th4DwArfY1
Written by themself:
When in your heart a gloom descends
And all seems black and dead,
Forget just what that thing portends
For this is what is said:
“Ah, music, music of my soul
Be calm, be still, be pure!
No grievances or pettiness-
My heart will not abjure.”
Take not the bristle of a thorn
And pin it in your flesh.
Take not the sting of living hell
And seal it in your breast.
Just harken, harken, hear my call
That through the darkness comes,
Don’t leave, don’t die, don’t fall
Live here where life and glory runs...
What’s this? The heart that beats is weak?
Just what is it you seek?
Some earthly gain? An end to pain?
Mayhap a shelter from the rain?
Death is no shelter. Death is no refuge.
If life is made of chains,
Then they are holding you aloft-
Go not where He in Evil reigns.
“Ah, music, music of my soul
Be calm, be still, be pure!
No grievances or pettiness-
My heart will not abjure.”
Written by themself:
The mountains rose as jagged teeth
Above the land my fathers knew.
The rivers ran in frothing fonts
And all I saw was good and true.
The vales were green and emerald,
The sea was slate grey and free
And all the while the trees arose
And spread their leafy canopy.
The forests rolled from shore to shore
And boats abounded on the waves.
There birds of green and vibrant red
Were in the scree and hollow caves.
I wish to wander longer there
And see the land my fathers knew.
I want to know the yellow flowers
And see their golden coloured hue.
I wish to look upon the scene
Where all my kin have ever been,
I wish that I could breathe that air,
That lingers there, fresh and fair.
Written by themself:
The dogs of war are nigh, are nigh
The horns of Satan ring.
The dogs of war are baying death
The Heralds praise the king.
Of carven throne, of yellow bone,
The king of death and war.
The heralds praise his strength of arms,
Which I myself abhor.
The gongs all sound the close of day,
The gates are closing fast.
The dead no longer need our fires,
Nor love to take repast.
You see them on the battlement,
You see them on the ground,
You hear their bays and calls
And fear that dreaded sound.
Some call them living men, the fools
That see such men wreak woe.
They say that they are men in suits
Made hard to kill their foe.
I care not, nor heed not, these words
For they have brought me pain.
You see them on the battlement?
Their strength seems not to wane.
For the dogs of war are nigh, are nigh,
And night is closing in.
So seal the gate, so seal the gate,
And then absolve our sin.
The blast of war has sounded now,
The gates are manned by Beasts,
And I must wander down the way
Where life and darkness meets.
The dogs of war are nigh, are nigh
The horns of Satan ring.
The dogs of war are baying death
The Heralds praise their king.
Written by themself:
The boughs of old are branched above
The grave of Ilyenor
And with her lies brave Alveron
Beneath those trees of yore.
Now Ilyenor from Villa Parva came
Amongst the lords of Wood
And in Fangorn she made her way
Where elf-trees blew and stood.
An Elven-fair she once had been
And lived in Wooden Hall
Upon her brow a gem shone forth
Ere came the Forest’s Fall.
But aye, she fled and lived amongst
The village folk of man
And lived in Villa Parva Town
Where once the rivers ran.
Long years had passed afore he came,
The Noble Alveron!
His habergeon was golden bright
And on his breast it shone.
Upon his brow a leaf alit
Inside an emerald’s light
And in his hand he clenched a lance;
It blazed first gold then white.
A man from mountains tall and grim,
He’d fought the stony beasts
That lurked within the cavern halls
Where once the Dwarves held feasts.
To Fangorn came his lance and shield,
To fight the dead that walk:
They’d chased away Ilyenor’s folk
From greenery and Loch.
A glimmer through the forest came
And there stood Ilyenor.
Oh Alveron, that mighty man
Looked upon Ilyenor.
The beasts around him growled and howled,
Impatiently he smote
And into dark their corpses flew
Away from He of Golden Coat.
He turned to her, the Elven Wise;
She saw the bloody blade
And off she sped away from him
To peaceful lake and glade.
But ever came Brave Alveron
O’er misty loch and fell.
He sought her long beneath the wood
He searched the lonesome dell.
And at the border edge he saw
That Fairest Elven maid.
She laughed and sang in sunny light,
He sighed and cast his blade.
For Alveron the fighting man
Had long been fighting beast
And now he saw his heart’s delight
He wished it all to cease.
His habergeon in weeds he dropped,
His lance and shield he left,
The emerald fell to the ground-
But he was not bereft.
She saw him come, the Man Who Chased
She saw his face so fair.
His eyes of blue did pierce her heart,
The Light was in his hair.
No weapons bore he in his haste,
He ran towards the maid
And in the dark a figure rose
In which the light did fade.
It aimed at Ilyenor the Elf
And shot a bolt of night
That Alveron in front of leapt
To save his heart’s delight.
No habergeon of gold he had,
The bolt went through his breast
And ‘neath the trees he breathed his last,
An arrow in his chest.
The figure chuckled darky now
To see what it had wrought,
And back to Ilyenor it aimed,
But found not what it sought.
The Elven maid was in the trees
And saw a star on earth:
The blade of Alveron she found,
A lance beyond all worth.
The darkling figure did not see,
For still it searched the light,
Behind came Fairest Ilyenor
And smote this Beast of Night.
It fell, it howled! She wept as blood
Upon her face did spray.
She looked at Alveron who lay
Inside the trees, away from day.
Her face of beauty was besmirched
By tears that fell to ground
But still she brought good Alveron
To where she had been found.
There sang she long and sang she deep,
Her arms about him lay,
And in her sorrow did she sing
To Alveron of Day.
She spoke of water, tree and bough
Of moonlight on the lake,
She begged for him to come to her
She begged him to awake.
No stir made Alveron for,
He was beyond her song,
So now she sat and wept alone,
In grief both deep and long.
Her tears did seep into the ground,
A river did they seem,
And now she sang again, the sound
Was likened to a dream.
“Oh Alveron, oh Alveron!
Who now does lie away
Beneath no moon that I can see
Come back along my way.”
Thus saying she did lie beside
Good Alveron the Knight
And in eternal slumber sought
His soul amongst the night.
She died, aye, searching there in death
But found at last his soul
And there they dwelt together long,
The two were made a whole.
The tears she cried, the song she sang,
Enchanted earthly graves
And from those sacred waters grew
A pair of trees like staves.
They rose above the trees around,
They grew in sorrow’s wake,
But in their boughs now Alveron
In spirit form’s awake.
And at his side fair Ilyenor
In tree and branch does bloom,
For she went forth and saved her love,
She saved him from his doom.
Written by Emily Dickenson:
How the old Mountains drip with Sunset
How the Hemlocks burn—
How the Dun Brake is draped in Cinder
By the Wizard Sun—
How the old Steeples hand the Scarlet
Till the Ball is full—
Have I the lip of the Flamingo
That I dare to tell?
Then, how the Fire ebbs like Billows—
Touching all the Grass
With a departing—Sapphire—feature—
As a Duchess passed—
How a small Dusk crawls on the Village
Till the Houses blot
And the odd Flambeau, no men carry
Glimmer on the Street—
How it is Night—in Nest and Kennel—
And where was the Wood—
Just a Dome of Abyss is Bowing
Into Solitude—
These are the Visions flitted Guido—
Titian—never told—
Domenichino dropped his pencil—
Paralyzed, with Gold—
Written by themself:
These tears. These tears. From whence fall you?
From turgid streams of pain and woe?
No. Tears like these fall from but one place
A place that all of us would fear to go.
From misery, that deadened land,
From horror and from painful grief
They fall, in drips and drabs from high,
They cast on me a mourning wreath.
This pain. This pain. From whence came you?
From heat or cold, in ice or flame
From lying in the burning sun
Or being drenched by pouring rain?
No. From inside my soul it strains,
This pain. An ache between my ears,
An inner, constant life of rains
And living with my living fears.
This cut. This cut. From whence came you?
To where does that crimson river flow?
It falls, in drips and drabs from high,
It goes, and in it lies my woe.
A knife, yet not my own, was thrust on me
A spear to lie beside my heart.
My life is done, yet youth I have:
I died before I ever got to start.
This hope. This hope. From whence comes you?
Baptise me now with your light, I beg
And I shall fly from here upon a wave of hope
And Hope to me shall be both arm and leg.
No. No hope, I was a fool,
‘Twas just a shadow
Coming swiftly, with a duel
Between myself and death
Slipping through the window.
Death has come to blot the sun.
I post too much, so if you want to see anything else I post, you'll have to read on through. I'm too lazy to put it all here :/
And, because I'm lazy:
http://www.bay12forums.com/smf/index.php?topic=141897.msg5580032#msg5580032
T-Mick
Written by G. K. Chesterton:
The gates of heaven are lightly locked,
We do not guard our gold,
Men may uproot where worlds begin,
Or read the name of the nameless sin;
But if he fail or if he win
To no good man is told.
The men of the East may spell the stars,
And times and triumphs mark,
But the men signed of the cross of Christ
Go gaily in the dark. . .
The wise men know what wicked things
Are written on the sky,
They trim sad lamps, they touch sad strings,
Hearing the heavy purple wings,
Where the forgotten seraph kings
Still plot how God shall die. . .
But you and all the kind of Christ
Are ignorant and brave,
And you have wars you hardly win
And souls you hardly save.
I tell you naught for your comfort,
Yea, naught for your desire,
Save that the sky grows darker yet
And the sea rises higher.
Night shall be thrice night over you,
And heaven an iron cope.
Do you have joy without a cause,
Yea, faith without a hope?
Fabulous death bringer
Written by themself:
Slit, Crack, Stab, Stich.
Slit my wrist.
Let my blood be my ink
And write the words that died on the way to the page.
Crack my skull.
Let my blood be my paint,
And color the canvas beyond I what my hand can do.
Stab my heart.
Let my blood act
All my emotion and thoughts without censor.
Stich me up.
Hold me close.
Let your love be my blood
So I can heal and become stronger.
Written by Edgar Allan Poe:
It was many and many a year ago,
In a kingdom by the sea,
That a maiden there lived whom you may know
By the name of Annabel Lee;
And this maiden she lived with no other thought
Than to love and be loved by me.
I was a child and she was a child,
In this kingdom by the sea,
But we loved with a love that was more than love—
I and my Annabel Lee—
With a love that the wingèd seraphs of Heaven
Coveted her and me.
And this was the reason that, long ago,
In this kingdom by the sea,
A wind blew out of a cloud, chilling
My beautiful Annabel Lee;
So that her highborn kinsmen came
And bore her away from me,
To shut her up in a sepulchre
In this kingdom by the sea.
The angels, not half so happy in Heaven,
Went envying her and me—
Yes!—that was the reason (as all men know,
In this kingdom by the sea)
That the wind came out of the cloud by night,
Chilling and killing my Annabel Lee.
But our love it was stronger by far than the love
Of those who were older than we—
Of many far wiser than we—
And neither the angels in Heaven above
Nor the demons down under the sea
Can ever dissever my soul from the soul
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
For the moon never beams, without bringing me dreams
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And the stars never rise, but I feel the bright eyes
Of the beautiful Annabel Lee;
And so, all the night-tide, I lie down by the side
Of my darling—my darling—my life and my bride,
In her sepulchre there by the sea—
In her tomb by the sounding sea.
Written by themself:
My Pie
I sit in this café, eating a piece of pie.
At this moment I am the queen.
I am the picture of nobility
my clothes are now the finest outfit in the city
and my manners are proper.
All the girls
envys my looks
wish to be me,
while all the men
feel desires of lust and romance.
Everyone’s job
is to serve me
and please me.
I am perfect,
until I finish
my piece of pie
Written by themself:
My love
He loves me and I love him
But we have not touched.
He is text on my screen
And I, the same to him.
He says “You can do better than him”
I tell him, “You can do better”
He could have any one he wants.
But he wants me.
He is my support, for when I falling down
My happiness for when I am sad.
My company for when I am lonely
If I lose him, then I lose me, for he is my everything.
I am weird, random, socially inept.
He is plagued with many demons,
Many more then what he has told me.
We will remained fucked up, together
Hand in hand.
Arx:
Yes, this counts:
Behold from the past, a post arises;
Ancient and pow'rful, carried through ages
The post of warding, waiting, watching;
Cried by the masses, mindful of prizes:
Written by themself:
Three AM comes and goes
Like the thistle and the rose
Is there purpose? No-one knows
Watch the moment, feel it flow
Written by themself:
His boat floats down the river
Stained from the clearest snowmelt
Forsaking the trees, he wears purple
Living in his halls of stone.
Written by themself:
Falling. Burning.
Tearing. Yearning.
White-hot sublimation,
Darkness' annihilation.
I hear the world calling
But calling not to me
Crying to the free
Or crying for the free
In the end it's no matter
Who they would have renewed
I am far the stronger
My might is raw and crude.
I will return from the light
Fight back to the blight
There can be no destruction
Of the hammers of night
Cmega3:
Written by Emily Dickinson:
Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops- at all.
And sweetest in the Gale is heard
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.
I've heard it in the chillest land
And on the strangest sea
Yet never, in Extremity
It asked a crumb of me.
Talvieno:
Talvieno included a link to his poem here:
http://www.bay12forums.com/smf/index.php?topic=141897.msg5568148#msg5568148
Audioworm333
Written by themself:
http://royalragequit.deviantart.com/art/My-Message-To-Pickup-Artists-476994915
Vlob:
Written by themself:
Seven brave dwarves went through the gate,
the old gate of Mountainhomes,
off they went, not knowing their fate
was to die in pain and gore.
Their trip was long, gruelling and harsh,
but then they thought they'd succeed.
Then they arrived to evil marsh
and doubt has started to breed.
A massive tower, with giant spikes
made of black iron and stone,
stood there, piercing the thick gray clouds.
Of this they haven't been told.
But brave they were, they had no fear,
they came for riches and gold,
oblivious to the threat so near,
they established a dwarven hold.
The fortress have grown, more have come,
lured by the gold shine of coin,
and tower still stood, feared by some,
believed to be abandoned.
The fort rose to power and wealth,
fortune the dwarves have amassed,
too long they were lucky and safe,
they let their war axes rust.
Time has come, that all were proved wrong,
the dwarves have met their demise,
this was the day for them to fall,
the day for dead to arise.
Walls did not stop foul undead wave,
the bridge did not close on time,
and fought for life, the soldiers brave
but all efforts were futile.
Such was the price of dwarven gold
of coin and treasure and jewels.
And tower stands, for men to behold,
and to ignore, for such fools.
(Pour us some wine, buy us a drink,
for that we surely have earned.
Sober and thirsty dwarf can't sing,
at least when we are concerned.)
Urist Mc Dwarf:
Written by themself:
Run from the shadow run from the light
Run from that that makes you fight
Run from the hate run from the love
Run from the hawk and run from the dove
Run from the pleasure run from the pain
Run from the honor run from the shame
Run from the market run from the house
Run from the eagle run from the grouse
Run from the in and run from the out
Run from the decision and run from the doubt
Run from the young and run from the old
Run from the dung and run from the gold
How can I live when I run
From everything under the sun
Then
Run to the shadow run to the light
Run to that that makes you fight
Run to the hate run to the love
Run to the hawk and run to the dove
Run to the pleasure run to the pain
Run to the honor run to the shame
Run to the market run to the house
Run to the eagle run to the grouse
Run to the in and run to the out
Run to the decision and run to the doubt
Run to the young and run to the old
Run to the dung and run to the gold
How can I live when I run
To everything under the sun?
Then
Run from the shadow run to the light
Run to and from that that makes you fight
Run from the hate run to the love
Run to the hawk and run to the dove
Run from the pleasure run from the pain
Run to the honor run from the shame
Run to the market run to the house
Run to the eagle run to the grouse
Run to the in and run to the out
Run to the decision and run from the doubt
Run to the young and run to the old
Run to the dung and run to the gold
Now I can live
Tiruin:
Written by Rudyard Kipling:
IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: 'Hold on!'
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
' Or walk with Kings - nor lose the common touch,
if neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man, my son!
sjm9876:
Written by William Ernest Henley:
Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.
In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.
Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.
It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate,
I am the captain of my soul.
Mastahcheese:
Written by themself:
"So you think your lives aren't watched by the clock?"
He cackles and coughs, sputters and sneers,
"But when you reach the door, I know you'll knock.
I know three times, just like we did here."
And out he pulls his mysterious contraption,
"For the things we had, of knowledge, nothing,"
Meticulously measured, to divine infraction
"And even then, we never saw it coming."
Silthuri:
Written by themself:
She looks out on the gloomy sea
Waiting for a sign.
A sight, a sound, anything,
To soothe her restless mind.
She knows not where he is
Nor if he yet survives.
She knows not when they'll meet,
But she'll stay till he arrives.
She'll always be a-waiting
There upon the shore.
She'll never lose her faith in him,
She'll only love him more.
He stands upon the lonely deck
Waiting for a sign.
He longs just for his one true love,
His dear and darling wife.
He wishes but to see her,
And hold her in his arms.
And ne'er again to leave her
And break her loving heart.
When last he left her waiting.
There upon the shore,
He missed her ere he left her
And he'll only miss her more.
Written by themself:
We have been beaten down
Left in the dark,
Out in the cold
No voice in the coming dawn.
The rising sun forsakes us.
This is the choiceless choice,
The grand finale,
The end of what was ours.
The silent voices,
The quiet pleas,
A cold winter’s wind,
We are feared, abandoned, despised.
Left for dead,
Barely alive
The innocent bystanders
Caught in the crossfire;
The ones who suffered
For those undeservingly superior.
No savior seems present
Nor answers our cries.
Our cold hungry pleas.
No conscience guides us,
No one beside us,
Nothing to catch us as we fall.
No light, no star to guide us
The world has left us
Deep within shadows of doubt
Hidden by secrets dear.
Imprisoned for life,
Sentenced to death.
Our own leaders have killed us
For rebelling against corruption
For simply being different.
The lightning points a finger
The moon casts us a hollow stare
The thunder drowns out our screams.
The clouds in our hearts
Roam across endless gray skies.
The blade of false hope
Pierces our minds.
Filled with painful apathy
We walk the night
In distant lands
In waves of silent solitude
Our souls deep in slumber,
Unlikely ever to be revived.
The animals we have become,
Our true unforgiving nature,
Remains caged within us
For the rest of time.
We are the lonely shadows.
Though we will never forget
What they put us through,
They forgot us;
We are the Forgotten.
Written by themself:
Oh snow. Drift silently down around me.
Frozen teardrops from the sky's gloomy eye.
Clouded by darkness as vast as the sea.
A gift from above from the clouds so high.
How thou reminds me of memories past.
Of life and of death, and of nights I have wept,
And a friendship, a love, not meant to last.
For what may be had when nothing is left?
I hate thee for the sorrow thou doth sow
And for the pain frozen deep within my veins.
Still, thou hast shown me the beauty I know
That allows me to forget all my pains.
No matter how much I find I hate you,
The truth is I shall always love you too.
Maya Angelou:
A free bird leaps
on the back of the wind
and floats downstream
till the current ends
and dips his wing
in the orange sun rays
and dares to claim the sky.
But a bird that stalks
down his narrow cage
can seldom see through
his bars of rage
his wings are clipped and
his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.
The free bird thinks of another breeze
and the trade winds soft through the sighing trees
and the fat worms waiting on a dawn bright lawn
and he names the sky his own.
But a caged bird stands on the grave of dreams
his shadow shouts on a nightmare scream
his wings are clipped and his feet are tied
so he opens his throat to sing.
The caged bird sings
with a fearful trill
of things unknown
but longed for still
and his tune is heard
on the distant hill
for the caged bird
sings of freedom.
Loam:
Translated from Russian:
I loved you once: perhaps that love has yet
To die down thoroughly within my soul;
But let it not dismay you any longer;
I have no wish to cause you any sorrow.
I loved you wordlessly, without a hope,
By shyness tortured, or by jealousy.
I loved you with such tenderness and candor
And pray God grants you to be loved that way again by another.
Translated from DF Dwarven:
Alcohol is like a strong defender:
the bitter bite is a flashing sword,
the warrior is armored in a metal suit,
cold in covering iron - warm,
though, within; he gives heat to those
who drink of him, the fragrant blood,
and worries are warded off with levity.
But too much drink, and now for you
there is trouble; the warrior now turns against you,
his arm too great to oppose,
and the bitter tool of war strikes you.
The helm is split; the head aches, eyes are blind,
and you fall down, crumble in defeat,
because you made the strong one too powerful.
Apiks:
Written by themself:
Rain crumbles
in the cacophony of silences,
the air shimmers
the city glimmers
Time indisposed,
exists now
light juxtaposed,
bleeds in view
It flows in the crevices,
unliving at last
sweeping the lives,
the lives of what once was
It rains. It rains red.
Tomasque:
Written by themself:
See the jester dance,
His jewelled feet do prance,
While on his throne,
The king thinks to take a chance.
He calls a juggling test,
But can't use the tools,
and to him says the jest,
"You'll make the wisest of fools!"
So the king lies prone,
Jest finds the king a-moan,
He takes his gold crown,
and jumps up onto his throne!
He says, "Now this is just great!
It feels quite strange,
I like this twist of fate,
Why don't you dance for a change?"
He had to obey;
He rose from where he lay.
The king was a fool,
yet but in which very way?
Written by G. K. Chesterton:
It is something to have wept as we have wept,
It is something to have done as we have done,
It is something to have watched when all men slept,
And seen the stars which never see the sun.
It is something to have smelt the mystic rose,
Although it break and leave the thorny rods,
It is something to have hungered once as those
Must hunger who have ate the bread of gods.
To have seen you and your unforgotten face,
Brave as a blast of trumpets for the fray,
Pure as white lilies in a watery space,
It were something, though you went from me to-day.
To have known the things that from the weak are furled,
Perilous ancient passions, strange and high;
It is something to be wiser than the world,
It is something to be older than the sky.
In a time of sceptic moths and cynic rusts,
And fatted lives that of their sweetness tire,
In a world of flying loves and fading lusts,
It is something to be sure of a desire.
Lo, blessed are our ears for they have heard;
Yea, blessed are our eyes for they have seen;
Let thunder break on man and beast and bird
And the lightning. It is something to have been.
NRDL:
Written by themself:
The lies that we tell ourselves,
In truth, our greatest creations
The upright beast deludes itself
Into thinking itself a man
Or more
And so forgets
the hunger, and frost and fear from whence it came
So lost is it in fantasy that the word
Reality
Loses much of its potency
and all of its meaning
The Dream evolves
That which it is not it wants
Its true form something to be feared/forgotten/forsaken
Cast into the pit of never was and never shall be
It steps into impossible light
Not realising that its eyes are shut forever
Warning: Long poem.
G-9, by Tim Dlugos (http://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems-and-poets/poems/detail/55132)
I’m at a double wake
in Springfield, for a childhood
friend and his father
who died years ago. I join
my aunt in the queue of mourners
and walk into a brown study,
a sepia room with books
and magazines. The father’s
in a coffin; he looks exhumed,
the worse for wear. But where
my friend’s remains should be
there’s just the empty base
of an urn. Where are his ashes?
His mother hands me
a paper cup with pills:
leucovorin, Zovirax,
and AZT. “Henry
wanted you to have these,”
she sneers. “Take all
you want, for all the good
they’ll do.” “Dlugos.
Meester Dlugos.” A lamp
snaps on. Raquel,
not Welch, the chubby
nurse, is standing by my bed.
It’s 6 a.m., time to flush
the heplock and hook up
the I.V. line. False dawn
is changing into day, infusing
the sky above the Hudson
with a flush of light.
My roommate stirs
beyond the pinstriped curtain.
My first time here on G-9,
the AIDS ward, the cheery
D & D Building intentionality
of the decor made me feel
like jumping out a window.
I’d been lying on a gurney
in an E.R. corridor
for nineteen hours, next to
a psychotic druggie
with a voice like Abbie
Hoffman’s. He was tied
up, or down, with strips
of cloth (he’d tried to slug
a nurse) and sent up
a grating adenoidal whine
all night. “Nurse . . . nurse . . .
untie me, please . . . these
rags have strange powers.”
By the time they found
a bed for me, I was in
no mood to appreciate the clever
curtains in my room,
the same fabric exactly
as the drapes and sheets
of a P-town guest house
in which I once—partied? stayed?
All I can remember is
the pattern. Nor did it
help to have the biggest queen
on the nursing staff
clap his hands delightedly
and welcome me to AIDS-land.
I wanted to drop
dead immediately. That
was the low point. Today
these people are my friends,
in the process of restoring
me to life a second time.
I can walk and talk
and breathe simultaneously
now. I draw a breath
and sing “Happy Birthday”
to my roommate Joe.
He’s 51 today. I didn’t think
he’d make it. Three weeks
ago they told him that he had
aplastic anemia, and nothing
could be done. Joe had been
a rotten patient, moaning
operatically, throwing chairs
at nurses. When he got
the bad news, there was
a big change. He called
the relatives with whom
he had been disaffected,
was anointed and communicated
for the first time since the age
of eight when he was raped
by a priest, and made a will.
As death drew nearer, Joe
grew nicer, almost serene.
Then the anemia
began to disappear, not
because of medicines, but
on its own. Ready to die,
it looks like Joe has more
of life to go. He’ll go
home soon. “When will you
get out of here?” he asks me.
I don’t know; when the X-ray
shows no more pneumonia.
I’ve been here three weeks
this time. What have I
accomplished? Read some
Balzac, spent “quality
time” with friends, come back
from death’s door, and
prayed, prayed a lot.
Barry Bragg, a former
lover of a former
lover and a new
Episcopalian, has AIDS too,
and gave me a leatherbound
and gold-trimmed copy of the Office,
the one with all the antiphons.
My list of daily intercessions
is as long as a Russian
novel. I pray about AIDS
last. Last week I made a list
of all my friends who’ve died
or who are living and infected.
Every day since, I’ve remembered
someone I forgot to list.
This morning it was Chasen
Gaver, the performance poet
from DC. I don’t know
if he’s still around. I liked
him and could never stand
his poetry, which made it
difficult to be a friend,
although I wanted to defend
him one excruciating night
at a Folio reading, where
Chasen snapped his fingers
and danced around spouting
frothy nonsense about Andy
Warhol to the rolling eyes
of self-important “language-
centered” poets, whose dismissive
attitude and ugly manners
were worse by far than anything
that Chasen ever wrote.
Charles was his real name;
a classmate at Antioch
dubbed him “Chasen,” after
the restaurant, I guess.
Once I start remembering,
so much comes back.
There are forty-nine names
on my list of the dead,
thirty-two names of the sick.
Cookie Mueller changed
lists Saturday. They all
will, I guess, the living,
I mean, unless I go
before them, in which case
I may be on somebody’s
list myself. It’s hard
to imagine so many people
I love dying, but no harder
than to comprehend so many
already gone. My beloved
Bobby, maniac and boyfriend.
Barry reminded me that he
had sex with Bobby
on the coat pile at this Christmas
party, two years in a row.
That’s the way our life
together used to be, a lot
of great adventures. Who’ll
remember Bobby’s stories
about driving in his debutante
date’s father’s white Mercedes
from hole to hole of the golf course
at the poshest country club
in Birmingham at 3 a.m.,
or taking off his clothes
in the redneck bar on a dare,
or working on Stay Hungry
as the dresser of a then-
unknown named Schwarzenegger.
Who will be around to anthologize
his purple cracker similes:
“Sweatin’ like a nigger
on Election Day,” “Hotter
than a half-fucked fox
in a forest fire.” The ones
that I remember have to do
with heat, Bobby shirtless,
sweating on the dance floor
of the tiny bar in what is now
a shelter for the indigent
with AIDS on the dockstrip,
stripping shirts off Chuck Shaw,
Barry Bragg and me, rolling
up the tom rags, using them
as pom-poms, then bolting
off down West Street, gracefully
(despite the overwhelming
weight of his inebriation)
vaulting over trash cans
as he sang, “I like to be
in America” in a Puerto Rican
accent. When I pass,
who’ll remember, who will care
about these joys and wonders?
I’m haunted by that more
than by the faces
of the dead and dying.
A speaker crackles near
my bed and nurses
streak down the corridor.
The black guy on the respirator
next door bought the farm,
Maria tells me later, but
only when I ask. She has tears
in her eyes. She’d known him
since his first day on G-9
a long time ago. Will I also
become a fond, fondly regarded
regular, back for stays
the way retired retiring
widowers return to the hotel
in Nova Scotia or Provence
where they vacationed with
their wives? I expect so, although
that’s down the road; today’s
enough to fill my plate. A bell
rings, like the gong that marks
the start of a fight. It’s 10
and Derek’s here to make
the bed, Derek who at 16
saw Bob Marley’s funeral
in the football stadium
in Kingston, hot tears
pouring down his face.
He sings as he folds
linens, “You can fool
some of the people some
of the time,” dancing
a little softshoe as he works.
There’s a reason he came in
just now; Divorce Court
drones on Joe’s TV, and
Derek is hooked. I can’t
believe the script is plausible
to him, Jamaican hipster
that he is, but he stands
transfixed by the parade
of faithless wives and screwed-up
husbands. The judge is testy;
so am I, unwilling
auditor of drivel. Phone
my friends to block it out:
David, Jane and Eileen. I missed
the bash for David’s magazine
on Monday and Eileen’s reading
last night. Jane says that
Marie-Christine flew off
to Marseilles where her mother
has cancer of the brain,
reminding me that AIDS
is just a tiny fragment
of life’s pain. Eileen has
been thinking about Bobby, too,
the dinner that we threw
when he returned to New York
after getting sick. Pencil-thin,
disfigured by KS, he held forth
with as much kinetic charm
as ever. What we have
to cherish is not only
what we can recall of how
things were before the plague,
but how we each responded
once it started. People
have been great to me.
An avalanche of love
has come my way
since I got sick, and not
just moral support.
Jaime’s on the board
of PEN’s new fund
for AIDS; he’s helping out.
Don Windham slipped a check
inside a note, and Brad
Gooch got me something
from the Howard Brookner Fund.
Who’d have thought when we
dressed up in ladies’
clothes for a night for a hoot
in Brad (“June Buntt”) and
Howard (“Lili La Lean”)’s suite
at the Chelsea that things
would have turned out this way:
Howard is dead at 35, Chris Cox
(“Kay Sera Sera”)’s friend Bill
gone too, “Bernadette of Lourdes”
(guess who) with AIDS,
God knows how many positive.
Those 14th Street wigs and enormous
stingers and Martinis don’t
provoke nostalgia for a time
when love and death were less
inextricably linked, but
for the stories we would tell
the morning after, best
when they involved our friends,
second-best, our heroes.
J.J. Mitchell was master
of the genre. When he learned
he had AIDS, I told him
he should write them down.
His mind went first. I’ll tell you
one of his best. J.J. was
Jerome Robbins’ houseguest
At Bridgehampton. Every morning
they would have a contest
to see who could finish
the Times crossword first.
Robbins always won, until
a day when he was clearly
baffled. Grumbling, scratching
over letters, he finally
threw his pen down. “J.J.,
tell me what I’m doing wrong.”
One clue was “Great 20th-c.
choreographer.” The solution
was “Massine,” but Robbins
had placed his own name
in the space. Every word
around it had been changed
to try to make the puzzle
work, except that answer.
At this point there’d be
a horsey laugh from J.J.
—“Isn’t that great?”
he’d say through clenched
teeth (“Locust Valley lockjaw”).
It was, and there were lots
more where that one came from,
only you can’t get there anymore.
He’s dropped into the maw
waiting for the G-9
denizens and for all flesh,
as silent as the hearts
that beat upon the beds
up here: the heart of the drop-
dead beautiful East Village
kid who came in yesterday,
Charles Frost’s heart nine inches
from the spleen they’re taking
out tomorrow, the heart of
the demented girl whose screams
roll down the hallways
late at night, hearts that long
for lovers, for reprieve,
for old lives, for another chance.
My heart, so calm most days,
sinks like a brick
to think of all that heartache.
I’ve been staying sane with
program tools, turning everything
over to God “as I understand
him.” I don’t understand him.
Thank God I read so much
Calvin last spring; the absolute
necessity of blind obedience
to a sometimes comforting,
sometimes repellent, always
incomprehensible Source
of light and life stayed
with me. God can seem
so foreign, a parent
from another country,
like my Dad and his own
father speaking Polish
in the kitchen. I wouldn’t
trust a father or a God
too much like me, though.
That is why I pack up all
my cares and woes, and load them
on the conveyor belt, the speed
of which I can’t control, like
Chaplin on the assembly line
in Modern Times or Lucy on TV.
I don’t need to run
machines today. I’m standing
on a moving sidewalk
headed for the dark
or light, whatever’s there.
Duncan Hannah visits, and
we talk of out-of-body
experiences. His was
amazing. Bingeing on vodka
in his dorm at Bard, he woke
to see a naked boy
in fetal posture on the floor.
Was it a corpse, a classmate,
a pickup from the blackout
of the previous night? Duncan
didn’t know. He struggled
out of bed, walked over
to the youth, and touched
his shoulder. The boy turned;
it was Duncan himself.
My own experience was
milder, don’t make me flee
screaming from the room
as Duncan did. It happened
on a Tibetan meditation
weekend at the Cowley Fathers’
house in Cambridge.
Michael Koonsman led it,
healer whose enormous paws
directed energy. He touched
my spine to straighten up
my posture, and I gasped
at the rush. We were chanting
to Tara, goddess of compassion
and peace, in the basement chapel
late at night. I felt myself
drawn upward, not levitating
physically, but still somehow
above my body. A sense
of bliss surrounded me.
It lasted ten or fifteen
minutes. When I came down,
my forehead hurt. The spot
where the “third eye” appears
in Buddhist art felt
as though someone had pushed
a pencil through it.
The soreness lasted for a week.
Michael wasn’t surprised.
He did a lot of work
with people with AIDS
in the epidemic’s early days
but when he started losing
weight and having trouble
with a cough, he was filled
with denial. By the time
he checked into St. Luke’s,
he was in dreadful shape.
The respirator down his throat
squelched the contagious
enthusiasm of his voice,
but he could still spell out
what he wanted to say
on a plastic Ouija board
beside his bed. When
the doctor who came in
to tell him the results
of his bronchoscopy said,
“Father, I’m afraid I have
bad news,” Michael grabbed
the board and spelled,
“The truth is always
Good News.” After he died,
I had a dream in which
I was a student in a class
that he was posthumously
teaching. With mock annoyance
he exclaimed, “Oh, Tim!
I can’t believe you really think
that AIDS is a disease!”
There’s evidence in that
direction, I’ll tell him
if the dream recurs: the shiny
hamburger-in-lucite look
of the big lesion on my face;
the smaller ones I daub
with makeup; the loss
of forty pounds in a year;
the fatigue that comes on
at the least convenient times.
The symptoms float like algae
on the surface of the grace
that buoys me up today.
Arthur comes in with
the Sacrament, and we have
to leave the room (Joe’s
Italian family has arrived
for birthday cheer) to find
some quiet. Walk out
to the breezeway, where
it might as well be
August for the stifling
heat. On Amsterdam,
pedestrians and drivers are
oblivious to our small aerie,
as we peer through the grille
like cloistered nuns. Since
leaving G-9 the first time,
I always slow my car down
on this block, and stare up
at this window, to the unit
where my life was saved.
It’s strange how quickly
hospitals feel foreign
when you leave, and how normal
their conventions seem as soon
as you check in. From below,
it’s like checking out the windows
of the West Street Jail; hard
to imagine what goes on there,
even if you know firsthand.
The sun is going down as I
receive communion. I wish
the rite’s familiar magic
didn’t dull my gratitude
for this enormous gift.
I wish I had a closer personal
relationship with Christ,
which I know sounds corny
and alarming. Janet Campbell
gave me a remarkable ikon
the last time I was here;
Christ is in a chair, a throne,
and St. John the Divine,
an androgyne who looks a bit
like Janet, rests his head
upon the Savior’s shoulder.
James Madden, priest of Cowley,
dead of cancer earlier
this year at 39, gave her
the image, telling her not to
be afraid to imitate St. John.
There may come a time when
I’m unable to respond with words,
or works, or gratitude to AIDS;
a time when my attitude
caves in, when I’m as weak
as the men who lie across
the dayroom couches hour
after hour, watching sitcoms,
drawing blanks. Maybe
my head will be shaved
and scarred from surgery;
maybe I’ll be pencil-
thin and paler than
a ghost, pale as the vesper
light outside my window now.
It would be good to know
that I could close my eyes
and lean my head back
on his shoulder then,
as natural and trusting
as I’d be with a cherished
love. At this moment,
Chris walks in, Christopher
Earl Wiss of Kansas City
and New York, my lover,
my last lover, my first
healthy and enduring relationship
in sobriety, the man
with whom I choose
to share what I have
left of life and time.
This is the hardest
and happiest moment
of the day. G-9
is no place to affirm
a relationship. Two hours
in a chair beside my bed
after eight hours of work
night after night for weeks
… it’s been a long haul,
and Chris gets tired.
Last week he exploded,
“I hate this, I hate your
being sick and having AIDS
and lying in a hospital
where I can only see you
with a visitor’s pass. I hate
that this is going to
get worse.” I hate it,
too. We kiss, embrace,
and Chris climbs into bed
beside me, to air-mattress
squeaks. Hold on. We hold on
to each other, to a hope
of how we’ll be when I get out.
Let him hold on, please
don’t let him lose his
willingness to stick with me,
to make love and to make
love work, to extend
the happiness we’ve shared.
Please don’t let AIDS
make me a monster
or a burden is my prayer.
Too soon, Chris has to leave.
I walk him to the elevator
bank, then totter back
so Raquel can open my I.V.
again. It’s not even
mid-evening, but I’m nodding
off. My life’s so full, even
(especially?) when I’m here
on G-9. When it’s time
to move on to the next step,
that will be a great adventure,
too. Helena Hughes, Tibetan
Buddhist, tells me that
there are three stages in death.
The first is white, like passing
through a thick but porous wall.
The second stage is red;
the third is black; and then
you’re finished, ready
for the next event. I’m glad
she has a road map, but I don’t
feel the need for one myself.
I’ve trust enough in all
that’s happened in my life,
the unexpected love
and gentleness that rushes in
to fill the arid spaces
in my heart, the way the city
glow fills up the sky
above the river, making it
seem less than night. When
Joe O’Hare flew in last week,
he asked what were the best
times of my New York years;
I said “Today,” and meant it.
I hope that death will lift me
by the hair like an angel
in a Hebrew myth, snatch me with
the strength of sleep’s embrace,
and gently set me down
where I’m supposed to be,
in just the right place.
Sonnets and poems from a poetic volume I'm writing since a few months - Starmakers. Cliche love poems - these aren't worth even a halfpenny, but I may finish the volume one day and publish it or post on-line.
All the stars in your eyes,
Through your pupils shining,
Compare not to the nebular beauty,
Concealed within your irises.
Clouds cold as ice,
Yet warmth emanating,
To take joy in them it is my duty,
As endless lie within them blisses.
Excellence they reflect,
Only seen when one is dreaming,
In white void submerged,
Clouds forming whirls.
Two comets perfect,
With starlight gleaming,
From Orion’s Belt they emerged,
Two flawless pearls.
Throughout space far and wide
Among countless shining stars,
Two celestial bodies feelings can’t hide
An argument of lovers, Venus and Mars.
In between their fiery battles, Earth,
With its patches of green and blue,
To mere mankind gave birth,
And let it live without any clue.
On a rock by its star lost am I,
But my star I see, is you.
Your shine pleasing to the eye,
Together a nova we will do.
In this gleam will pale Venus and Mars
From our love will be born the brightest of the stars.
If our Sun will fade out
And we shall perish at once,
I will still remember,
Thousands of suns I had felt,
With your every touch.
If our Sun will fade out
And we shall perish at once,
My heart with stardust ember
Enkindled will melt,
Your shine means so much.
If our Sun will fade out
And we shall perish at once,
One last time I will ask
For your love, however shy,
And my spirit you shall receive.
If our Sun will fade out
And we shall perish at once,
In your gleam I will bask
Forsaking the blackened sky,
And your love will make me live.
Out of the space deaf and blind
With countless resonating strings woven,
I can’t put at ease my mind,
Beyond planes of reality cloven.
Thrown into black pit my body suffers,
Yet still, my spirit endures
Even though my every limb falters,
My heart withstands tortures.
It is a strange power which gives me strength,
Constantly bringing me to you,
Able to cut planes at any length
Between dimensions, across and through.
Defeated lies the void, that separated you and me,
By the might of love, as pure as it can be.
The last one is unfinished, I kinda lack incentive to continue writing it, but I'm posting it anyway:
To describe you, I will need to hue my whole universe
Taking the star paint - no worse, I will start with golden gloom of the moon,
Matching it with azure heart of the noon, and crimson flames of all the suns,
A fiery comet I will stop at once, taking its tail of rainbows and sparks
To adorn it with cosmic marks, and wrap as a band of emeralds.