if you like spiritual theories, this video is maybe somthing for you. most "stuff" in the world dont explain the reasons for a personal behavior. this video has a solid approach, almost like algebra for the root source of suffering.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eQxk3TMENEIbe aware, there is a shitload of wrong information about that specific topic. in the first 30 minutes it will explain all the grotesque portrayals of it. so when you try to research it more deeper, try to double check sources. basicly all stuff/media/teachings which tries to split up things into two major factions (good/bad) are totally wrong and not harmonizing the metaphysical forces. dissension based stuff/media/teachings is like "nuclear fission" in your soul.