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General Discussion / Re: [Pan paka pan~] Atagos soft fuel tanks return (Happy thread!!!)
« on: February 04, 2015, 02:02:54 pm »Well. I seem to be leaving again, in a sense.
I'm not going to be around as much anymore outside of the Flight of the Twelve Behemoths and Book Club threads (and occasional posts about creative projects), because I'm trying to build a happier life for myself offline and spend more time creating and learning, less time consuming, and all that jazz. I really just can't maintain the intensity of my involvement here and do the things I want to do with my time, and I've come to see that the frequency of my posting is destroying my ability to write well. At some point, I stopped cultivating deliberation. Frankly, even writing this very carefully, I feel like my message is being distorted through stylistic exigencies. I've spent most of the evening going through my tumblr and twitter, deleting stuff, unfollowing people. The aesthetic of transience is wonderful, but I don't think its practice through the internet is very good for me.
Still: Y'all have been great. Thanks for the years, and years, and years of happy memories.
(As a footnote, I don't seem to have PTSD anymore. For those of you who have been considering going into therapy, I had an extremely poor experience in the first place that resulted in a. A highly unethical asperger's diagnosis by an unlicensed practitioner and b. Nearly being medicated for depression before anyone bothered to try figuring out why I was depressed. If your therapist isn't working for you, go and get a new one--but if you've been thinking about therapy, there's probably a reason for that. Find someone who understands you. Stick to it. When it works, it's worth it.)
