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Gran has dementia, that's obviously playing on my mind because it started with her having dementia and moving into a care home. Then my granddad got dementia, then my dad (who've both been dead these past 9 years, so that's something), then my mum. Then the world started falling apart, which was expected. The world was ending, kind of terrifying but it was known it was going to happen but the world was going to restart. Me, my family and some friends (Not IRL friends, some dream friends consisting of random people from various parts of my life) met up for a last drink, got some pictures taken and one by one died or dropped into the void. Eventually it was me and a couple of friends left who were sticking around, drunk, to see every last thing fall apart before leaving themselves. I got fed up with the anxiety so I jumped into the void.

Next bit of the dream I remember was some stuff with a video game, some people (me included) having a bunch of very popular protests for fun, a game where you had to kill robots which my friend fucked up and released an unkillable robot into a pub (But it was a game, so it was fine), and pubs. Lots of pubs. After wandering around, drinking with some friends, I realised I was feeling super lonely. Like really, really, *really* lonely. Nobody else to be with in any capacity. Eventually I met up with some old friends from a few years back IRL, hung around with them a bit but then they started to shoplift from a small locally-run business which didn't sit right with me. I left and went off.

Next up, the cinema. Went to see the new Spiderman film, it was Tom Holland's. Some Black Panther-Spiderman crossover, he was convinced to take some Wakandan hallucinogen that was specifically for the Black Panther that's supposed to give you hallucinations that terrify and disgust you so you fear nothing by the end of it. Spiderman was being offered it because with his mutant powers he could withstand the 400bpm heart rate it caused and super intense fever. Can't remember the majority of the hallucinations, I just remember one of them being someone raising the dead in Frankenstein's Monster style and banging the reanimated corpse. Once he snorted the hallucinogen it stopped being 100% a film and turned into a sort of thing I was also experiencing. Then he started to build a tower in the hallucination, which the Wakandans could see, and apparently it represented your mental strength and political views(?), and every time you encountered something you had to consider the tower would collapse a bit and need rebuilding. Spiderman/I (Since I was also experiencing this bit) was apparently unique because the tower was built with absolutely no collapses.

Finally emerge from the hallucination and in weird frat bro fuckboy fashion, Spiderman insists that his friend *has* to be allowed to try it. Seriously, just a bit to see how fucked up it was. He'd just about convinced the Wakandans when I was woken up.

"Maybe they're saving up for something?"

"Oh yeah, like that."

Even if it's not something the higher ups authorised, it's possible that someone further down the chain decided to make an executive decision and perform the strikes for that reason. I can't say I think that'd be likely, but it's possible.

This is very much an angry WTF, but where I'm at in the UK is trialling a new neurodivergency self-referral service. The whole thing was a bit confusing at the end because it doesn't say whether or not you're being referred, so I had to talk to the doctor about it.

You get referred only if you're basically non-functional. You don't get referred for autism, you don't get referred for ADHD, you don't get referred for dyspraxia/calculia/lexia, you get referred if you have multiple of them. Otherwise the response is "Well, here's some resources. You want treatment, go private."

So it's possible, if not downright likely, I have ADHD, but I'm not able to get any treatment for it on public healthcare for reasons I assume to be that they've decided they don't have the resources so we can go hang.

Gah, fucking pissing shit I hate evolutionary biology. I'm going to get this assignment in late even though I already had an extension because it's so bloody dull that I can't focus on it, and I understand it so little (Due to aforementioned dullness making me zone out during lectures (not helped by the lecturer being so horrendously boring I'd rather bloody go and give my dick a paper cut just to have some stimulation during her lectures)) that it gives me enough anxiety to feel like I need to throw up.

It's due in 12 fucking hours. God I hate this course, I'll be glad to see the back of it.

This isn't really a random question... where is everyone? Is everyone traveling or something?

Oh yes, McTraveller is of course asking whether or not everyone is travelling.

That's called projection.

Started playing Risk of Rain again (The OG, not the new one) for the first time since something like 2016. Nobody to play it with, so I was going solo. Engineer's my best class by far, and I've managed to get further than ever with him. Got to the divine teleporter and accidentally jumped back for a victory lap instead of progressing. Died when I came under attack from four(!) magma worms and a golem.

Preshishin strike!