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Man Gunnerkrigg is so awesome.

You ever have tears of joy because this happens many times to me.

Yeah teasing with people is really fun...
:/

No, we are not all on episode 17.  I'm stuck behind because I'm watching it with someone else and he prefers dubs and I don't want to know more than him because that's kindof a jerk move.

I have my reasons.

 I'll... I'll be away for a while.

NO DUKE, ARGHHH

I just spent two hours reading TVTropes (damn you Strife, for mentioning something that made me link to it), and I need to wake up in five hours to take a shower and go to class.

Ah screw it, none of those things makes me sad.  I enjoyed the read, I'll get plenty enough sleep, and showering is easy peasy with my new shorter hair.

I love been-awake-too-long endorphins.

That's the spirit!

So yeah. Received my grades for last semester a week before. Two C's, a B and a D in math. I'm going to need to retake that math class. My adviser was positive about it, very confident that I could eventually get into Maryland and do whatever the hell I wanted to do. She eve noticed a pattern that could help me next semester raise my grades. So in leaving a week ago I was confident.

 Fuck that if my dad has anything to with it. Just... fuck. And now I'm absolutely torn between blind rage at him propelling me towards getting the grades to get into Maryland just to spite the accusation that I messed up so much that I cannot hope to get in, and the crushing of my soul if that were to happen. I don't want hate. I don't want to be angry at anybody. I don't want to blame the fuckups through my life upon the guy that somehow made me the way I am now. But goddammit if he isn't trying his best to turn me into a psychopath.

 And the worst part is? Two levels of defense from ever dealing with this. First is the fact that he doesn't listen. Yeah sure we all get that as a teenager, but I KNOW that he puts no effort into listening. Even if I began to talk about what may be a problem or some confession I may have he just goes blindly into an unrelated problem he remembers I have. Or the most common problem of just not caring, me stopping halfway through a sentence and him responding as if I went through it all in whatever way he imagined. Him asking questions of me but answering them himself a second later. His hour-long speeches at the slightest little peep from me.
 The second problem is if he does hear anything I say. He'll take offense to it, seeing it somehow as disrespect towards him if it is implied that he did anything wrong. JU-

 Godfuckshithell.

 See, even now I'm going into a mode of blind rage at all this shit. I would rather suffer through this all than become that person. But now my strength is sapped by his almost constant possibly unintended abuse, and I am struggling to fight this person I do not want to be.

I think the best solution here is to take a step back and question what you know is right and what you should be doing.

I like Janet's avatars.

Also @Duke's avatar:

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Modern Marvels is really good.

Yeah I'll click that when I'm ready hehehe.