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I'm growing tired of troll conversations. While they are amusing reads, they are still large blocks of text instead of an MS Paint Adventure.

Blame it on the weather that destroyed Andrew's apartment.  I'm sure when he gets readjusted he will be able to actually make more art.

I'm really bummed out right now.

     I don't know why, I was just down stairs and I realized what's ahead of me right now and it sucks.  I'm designed so that I can't quit anything important to what "I'm suppose to do".  I can't think of WHY I do this, but I find myself as a Knight In Sour Armor A LOT.  That tends to be my general mood, sometimes I dip into Cuckoo Land, but that's only in short bouts of happiness, also known as NOT CARING.  It pisses me off, but that just makes me work towards my goal of SOMETHING.  I'm suppose to go have some successful career, right?  That's how it works RIGHT?  I work hard academically, now I'm spending my precious time that was entertainment for me doing VOLUNTEER HOURS.  SO that I can get into some stupid ass National Honor Society and the only reason I'm doing that IS FOR MY FUTURE.
     I can't look at my past self, my past self is ALWAYS inferior to my present self, it has been the case forever.  That's a good thing, right?  Let's put this metaphorically.  I'm some dude running through some desert for some water at the end.  Let's call this water "the goal" I have to achieve.  Well you know real life?  There is no water at the end, because there IS NO END.  So that must mean I have to enjoy the part where I'M RUNNING THOUGH THE HOT, HARD, STEAMING DESERT.  Which is impossible.  Then you have the "others", it's hard not to be blunt about this, but you have THOSE people that take the enjoyable route, the car ride under a nice shaded roof through the desert.  They don't work as hard, so they don't have a better future, but THEY ARE HAPPY.  *sob*
     I need to, this is hard to explain.  Oh yeah people tell you to enjoy life blah blah bulllshit.  I'm always STRESSED THE FUCK OUT.  What should I be anxious about today ToonyMan?  Oh, I can't be stressed out about school because I'm all set there FOR THIS MINUTE.  LET'S GET SWEATING OVER MY SOCIAL PROBLEMS WITH MY FATHER.  Or maybe that game of Mafia I'm in where I'm getting a lot of heat?  Yeah sure why not.  Just for some humor why don't we give ToonyMan a good dose of autism and ocd for the heck of it?  THAT MIGHT WORK.  A resting heartbeat of 140 bps is AWESOME.
     Also, why not give ToonyMan interests that NOBODY in the WORLD would be interested in?  How about whenever ToonyMan talks in the public he always thinks he's going to get screwed?  How about the fact I have no friends outside school ones?  I'm a complete shut in.  Last week someone during lunch asked if we could hang out, I couldn't say yes.  I COULDN'T SAY YES.  Just some mild I'm busy shit.  I feel I'm causing a lot of what's happening.  Because like, that's usually what happens, right?  Super freak to the max.
     I need something new, or there must be something out there.  NO.  The problem lies in me.  Maybe if I was stronger, more will in what I do.  I have to be stronger, I can't let anybody down.  I don't need support from others.  Maybe.  I know I do need support, but I could never say or do it.  Even if what I say now is a contradiction it wouldn't change anything, I always contradict myself.  I think I punish myself too much.
     Watching Gurren Lagann is really weird.  The main character is so determined and strong, I know this sounds lame and geeky, maybe even freaky, but I wish I was as strong as FICTIONAL CHARACTERS.  Come on now, I can't take this seriously anymore.  Soon I'll be talking to stuffed animals.  Blah, I don't know what say right now.  I just feel really cold in the inside all the time.

That's it for now.

Oh, and we have no food and I'm hungry.  Guess I have to wait until school lunch tomorrow.

I'm starting episode 21.

I finished episode 24, I'm done for today.

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SO apparently you have to travel down 10 dungeon levels and fight some guy, this is all I know.  I am very interested by this game so I'm going to start playing it.

This game is VERY spoiler-y to talk about.  So make sure to spoil anything that would ruin the fun for others.  I MEAN IT.

Let's get started.

Con Air happened.

Man, I guess nobody was kidding when I was being called an "old man". 25 over yonder.

Amazingly my personality blends well, then again I do get immature at times. If one were to meet me in person, I think there would be a similar assumption. I tend to not look my age at all. Sometimes I like it, other times it gets annoying. Particularly annoying with jobs in the service industry.

It doesn't help that there's a great lack of proper jobs in the graphic design field (also occupied by annoying advertisers), so there's some money spent in college I won't be getting back anytime soon. Plus, it's a bit of a challenge trying to line up freelance work to run parallel with my current job, and get a reasonable pay from both of them. For what it's worth, I kinda wanted to be a freelancer of sorts anyway. More creative freedom; plus, I think I can do some self-employment. I guess if I can afford to, I should take some business courses while I still can.

I was actually surprised when I first heard your age, I thought you were younger, heh.

I'm not sure if this is offensive but I'm going with it.

I found my first hat, oh my god.  That took over 200 hours.  It's the Medic's spiky hat.  Yah.