Bay 12 Games Forum

Yeah that's not the most progressive way to go for me.

My parents are pretty fine with me, they'll be helpful and stuff.  But they absolutely hate each other which sucks.

Quote from: ToonyMan on May 22, 2011, 11:12:33 am

Thanks Josh.  Later yesterday I felt better for a certain reason (UMINEKO AKUSHON) and today has been better overall.  I actually had a thought that made me smile on the way home during the bus ride, but I don't want to share it because it's embarrassing oh what the hell it made me smile.

I didn't have anything to do today during school so I read almost two volumes of Pandora Hearts which is some fantasy shonen manga, but what got to me was how much I liked the outfits in the series on all the characters.  I kinda had an image of myself as some noble blood in a fancy mansion wearing fancy clothes doing fancy things which I thought was really cool...

Hahaha, man I feel depressed.  Almost down enough to use ellipses.  I think I need a motivation to drive me because I don't have anythiiiiiiiing right now.  I felt pretty down this whole weekend.  I think my enjoyment of things would multiply hundred fold if I felt positive, but I really don't feel positive at all.  I really do keep to myself too much.  I don't let anybody hear my problems and I suffer from within.  So why don't I say something?!  I don't know I don't know I don't know.  Thinking about it, the only thing I could tell them was "I don't ever feel happy" and then what from there?  I can't predict people's responses too well but they'd probably want me to figure out how to feel good?  I don't feel good, at all.  I feel entirely foreign to my own body and I want out.  I want to be free and released, airborne like a wispy spirit.  I don't want to be locked in a shell that responses with monotonous yeses and nos.  If my parents told me to go out and hang with my friends I wouldn't be happy with that either.  I actually enjoy being with myself on a computer or some such, because I actually get to leave this world at least partially.  What I don't enjoy is having to "live my life".  Hrrmmm, I guess that makes me want to be a complete nobody right?  I've already said to myself every night that I want to be forgotten, that way my parents and family and friends wouldn't feel any grief if something happened to me, but that isn't going to happen.  I can't be forgotten and there's nothing I can do about that.

I'm pretty sure I've already contradicted previous statements I've made, but this is how I feel right now.

Very very very very very sad.

Toony, your avatar is six flavors of creepy.

I'm a lame-o so I copied a Higurashi joke from the anime onto Vision of Escaflowne.

USO DA just means "It's a lie."

Let's celebrate Danny Elfman!

Batman (1989) - Theme
The real Batman theme.  Not actually one of my favorites of his.
Beetlejuice - Theme
Nice buildup, great beat.  Love the brass.
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory - Theme
Now here's a weird one.  It always bugged me out.  Reminds me of Men in Black which isn't surprising.
Men in Black - Theme
I love this theme as well.  It's really great in my opinion.  I wish youtube's quality was better.  I want FLACs of all this man.
Pee-Wee's Big Adventure - The Breakfast Machine
Say what you want about the film, this song is great and really hard to forget.  Danny Elfman has all the orchestra, all of it.
Spider-Man - Theme
I'm just putting this here because they're Spider-Man.
The Night before Christmas - This is Halloween! (which is the Theme as well I believe )
Yeah, everybody knows this song.  If you haven't heard it you will never forget it.  I'm serious.  I can still play it in my head.
The Night before Christmas - What's This?!
I don't even know if this is the real name but Jack sure says it a lot.

Shit man, all of the songs he composed are freakin' awesome.  There's a ton more but this should be good for now.

Watching the the Baby Geniuses video from Nostalgia Critic when...