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General Discussion / Re: AmeriPol thread
« on: January 21, 2024, 10:18:55 pm »
They should make him carry his campaign to term.
Ooooooh!
Not much to say except I'm relieved DeSantis won't get to spread his particularly-extreme platform against women and trans people on a national level.  Not like I like Trump, who's dutifully parroting the anti-trans rhetoric as a good establishment puppet, but... yeah.

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General Discussion / Re: Things that made you go "WTF?" today o_O
« on: January 20, 2024, 11:27:35 am »
Sounds to me that whoever wrote that was actually facetious regarding the animal shelter, because obviously no animal shelter employee will come once called to fetch a kid from a school and move him/her into a cage back in the shelter :D
Of course, yeah.  I don't find it funny but I also don't think they intended actually put any degenerates in cages (yet).  The bill won't even pass (yet).  It's just a haha funny joke, a metaphorical steaming pile in our halls of government.

And that haha funny joke has a purpose.  Yes it's "hyperbolic" (goes too far, but...) and "unprofessional"... and obviously it's fine to be a furry... but while we're discussing this haha funny joke, maybe they shouldn't be in school.  Or important jobs.  And they shouldn't groom themselves like animals (you know how they are!).

There are historical parallels here that anyone with "situational awareness" would notice.  This hides behind humor, but it wasn't done for laughs.

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General Discussion / Re: Things that made you go "WTF?" today o_O
« on: January 19, 2024, 09:45:25 pm »
I refuse to engage with "children shouldn't be furries" because that's the goal of this nonsense bill, to shift the conversation to that.  The only takeaway here should be that the legislators proposed a bill that could be applied to literally any child in the school, "intent" be damned, and could call ANIMAL CONTROL on them.  Har, har.

The bill is a disgusting joke and anyone who still values our legal system should see it as an attack on such.  Even if one thinks furries are freaks and parents should "educate" it out of them, we can table that shit, this is just a bad bill that mocks the rule of law.

Also, it was inspired by a hoax that schools are putting out kitty litter for furry students.  That's not real.  The kitty litter was seemingly for use while sheltering in place during shooter events.  Yet it's being pushed by Libs Of Tiktok as "degeneracy run amok" and it's INFLUENCING FUCKING LEGISLATION, so maybe people should be MAD ABOUT THAT LIE?  Instead of bemoaning the CREATIVE EXPRESSION of our fucking youth???

these legislators are the only degenerates here, they ought to be fired.  from their jobs, I guess.
But I'm sorry, I've gotten mad about this and therefore I've probably alienated all the "moderates" who think the problem HERE is kids wearing costumes

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General Discussion / Re: Things that made you mildly upset today thread
« on: January 19, 2024, 09:31:17 am »
It seems strange to me that anyone would really want to have a second drink at all, let alone feel compelled. That's the nature of addition I suppose, but why does ethanol have that effect on humans? Is it mostly chemical at all or just a social expectation to poison yourself?
I mean, it causes euphoria.  Music just sounds better, writing flows better, chatting feels exciting.  Giddiness.  It gets rid of all the stupid shit in my brain that stops me from enjoying my free time.

I often say that it's borrowing against the future, but that's partially a cope.  That future can be sleep, in which case- oh no- I actually sleep instead of having a fricken movie marathon.  Or I read a fricken book, something passive and fine.  It would be soooooo worth it... and I never took anything to mitigate my hangovers, except for greasy breakfasts and hydration.  Even facetanking that crap, it was worth it.

But it's not just borrowing against tomorrow, it's borrowing from the next month or so (at least).  It dampens gender dysphoria for a little while but then makes it worse by making my skin gross.  I look so much better now, and that's a nicer normal.

It hurts relationships, too.  Yeah by making me be annoyingly manic (a little or... a lot), but more subtly by making me think that all my relationships are predicated on getting tipsy.  It becomes a chore to talk to people sober, with the obvious conclusion that I'm not actually friends with my friends.  They probably wouldn't even like me sober.

...I'm glad I was wrong about that, mostly.  I have a couple of really good friends who prefer me this way, and that means the world.  Sometimes I *only* stay sober for them.  They say they'll accept whatever I choose, but I don't want to disappoint them.

Because I don't prefer me this way.  I miss that feeling of just completely losing myself in a megamix, or banging out a batshit narrative with no filter.
I wasn't blacking out anymore, you know?  HRT put an end to that without me having to even *try*.  Blacking out was about self-loathing, and I stopped loathing myself.
makes me furious that all I needed for that was a natural chemical, and that that chemical is so fucking politicized.  I still cry occasionally about how long I suffered for NOTHING... for political games...

That's the other thing I guess.  Every time I go to try a light drink (with a friend "trip sitting") I recoil in horror, physically, at the last moment.  I think it's because (and this is a stretch, but try to follow my vibe) I consider alcohol a weapon that kills trans people.  Compared to fighting for transition it's the cheap, accessible, instant-gratification, deadly alternative.  I imagine every fascist/transphobe I've ever known just... grinning.
That was kinda literal, when my drinking was worst...
So yeah...

but on the other hand I want to be happy sometimes, truly relax, and I feel like I never do anymore.  Most people do and it's fine!

but on the other other hand my favorite twitch streamer quit alcohol when she transitioned and she's obviously happier this way.  She's been sober for two years and isn't obsessed with it like I am.  So maybe 4 months isn't the end... maybe it'll keep getting easier, and I can still develop healthy ways to relax.

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Other Games / Re: How did you last die?
« on: January 19, 2024, 08:43:11 am »
"With this character's death, the thread of prophecy is severed. Restore a saved game to restore the weave of fate, or persist in the doomed world you have created."
That's rough :(  But a good companion is priceless, I know the feeling.

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General Discussion / Re: Things that made you mildly upset today thread
« on: January 17, 2024, 06:54:50 pm »
So, four months sober.

I keep convincing myself that it's okay to have a *light* drink.  To prove that I can, and to reduce my annoying inhibitions just a little bit.  Just a pleasant buzz while I write or code that makes it easier to get in the groove.  I still have a little vodka, and recently... uh, actually 2 weeks ago... I got a cheap 40 (enough high-ABV beer to get solidly drunk if I drank it all in one night).

So that's one idea, that it would help me be more productive in small doses.  Alternatively, I'm struggling to motivate myself to do things lately and the reward of relaxing with a moderate amount of alcohol would help encourage me.  It feels a bit like insomnia- I often feel like I never really shut my brain off because my sleep is so full of vivid important dreams.  Then I'm mentally tired much of the day and I keep wanting to take a proper break.

On the other hand I often wake up from dreams about drinking and I feel like a loser until I logically work out that it was only a dream.
And sometimes I'm weirdly proud of myself for staying sober, and I don't really know why, but the memory of that stops me whenever I go to drink some.  I feel like it made sense at the time, I just can't remember why.

So I kinda feel like my mind is splitting about this and it's... frustrating.  I try to keep the plurality stuff to my dreams, but it feels like it's spilling over a little bit and that's annoying.  Ironically I guess I'm back to the "leaving notes for myself" days from 2022 when I was blacking out.  (I only blacked out like once in 2023.  The drinking was almost entirely under control.  HRT is magic)

Anyway it's a moot point right now because I have crap in my lungs again, and just tested positive for covid.  So it's a bad time to weaken my immune system at all.

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General Discussion / Re: AmeriPol thread
« on: January 17, 2024, 03:22:58 pm »
Sounds like the deplorables narrative all over again.
And just like that narrative it doesn't matter what people *actually* say.  Certain people will twist anything to feel like the victims and justify voting against their own interests, and especially against the interests of [insert vulnerable minority here].  It's just stupid, and paying it false respect only legitimizes it.

I think it's worth noting in the original speech where Hillary coined "basket of deplorables" she was saying there were two kinds of Trump voters; those who are broke and desperate, abandoned by politics altogether, and the basket of deplorables who were racist/sexist/homophobic/islamophobic/xenophobic. That got fed through the outrage machine into "Hillary is calling YOU deplorable" and before you knew it every GOP rally had waves of ppl selling deplorable merch. A cautionary tale in own-goaling yourself by carelessly talking about your fellow man, cos the easiest way to rally a group "is they are not us, they are attacking us"
Thanks for explaining the context I didn't bother to :)

My conclusion is a bit different, that her actual words didn't matter at all and there's no point to respectability politics when one side is so post-truth.  But meh.

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General Discussion / Re: AmeriPol thread
« on: January 17, 2024, 11:01:11 am »
Sounds like the deplorables narrative all over again.
And just like that narrative it doesn't matter what people *actually* say.  Certain people will twist anything to feel like the victims and justify voting against their own interests, and especially against the interests of [insert vulnerable minority here].  It's just stupid, and paying it false respect only legitimizes it.

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All the coolest people I know are furries or "not furries" :3
I'm in the latter camp.  I just think they're neat!

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Sandwich is [Bread product][Filling][Bread product]

It can be semi-wrapped, like you got one slice of bread and folded it over the filling. At most one side can be closed, any more and you're veering into calzone territory.

*Diogenes bursts into the scene, holding what is clearly a calzone sliced on one side and filled with raw tomato, lettuce, fried bacon and boiled eggs*

"Behold, a sandwich!"
Engaging in taxonomy debate to trick Diogenes into catering~
...then remembering how unhygeinic he is :-\

ninja'd by Egan heh

And I don't think I'd like the texture of crisps between bread, but yes the flavors are great.  Maybe next time I chop and sautee some potato slices, I'll try eating them between slices of bread.  With mustard or something!

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General Discussion / Re: Railgun and Spirituality Discussion
« on: January 08, 2024, 01:40:01 pm »
ackshually, based on that photograph, I think Medjet fires bolts of plasma like in Star Wars rather than lasers.
Where's the deity with railgun-eyes?  :-\

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General Discussion / Re: Railgun and Spirituality Discussion
« on: January 07, 2024, 11:13:14 am »
Just saw an interesting quora post about why Christians were persecuted in ancient Rome.  Like most angry atheists I've seen (and made) comparisons between Christianity and a cannibalistic human-sacrificing death cult... because that's technically what it is, no shade... but this presents an interesting explanation for why Christianity was so offensive to Romans and Greeks particularly.

The point seems to be that worship of a human, especially a ritually unclean human, violated a lot of local taboos and thus drew particular ire.  So Christians would get blamed for bad fortune (but only once it arrived, due to the way the law worked).

I don't know if it's true but it's an interesting claim!  https://qr.ae/pKxk23

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Quote from: impressed by a picture of a crepe
At this point if I was a dilf I would propose to you

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General Discussion / Re: The Dream Thread
« on: December 30, 2023, 03:30:29 pm »
Another fever dream where I had to solve a puzzle-game before I could actually rest.  Usually my dreams let me visualize very realistic 3D spaces which can be indistinguishable from waking life.  Fever dreams abandon that utterly.

I was in a new content update for Fallen London where I could arrange items- most of which are concepts like "gossip" or "enigmas"- on a grid.  By setting up two intersecting lines of such items, I could alchemize new items at the intersection.  The longer the more efficient, which made me worried about the action economy...  always about optimization in these dreams.  I was following the suggestions at first and alchemizing moderately useful rewards, but I (accidentally?) put some hell-brandy in one row, mixing it with gossip.  The result was a new item not present in the actual game.  Some sort of Infernal secret shaped like seeking red roots...

Oh, I get it now.  The mysterious and intimate blue flower you can acquire by walking the road to hell.
I know why these roots were red, too.  Subtle.

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General Discussion / Re: Railgun and Spirituality Discussion
« on: December 29, 2023, 08:48:51 pm »
Eh. I'd say that any ideology can be used to promote violence if someone's fallen deep enough into the trap of promoting said ideology at any cost. "We will show them our peaceful ways, by force!"
Yeah I should have also said this. You can find an excuse in most ideologies for most kinds of bigotry. Though I rarely see this, it's conceivable that a "rational atheist" (of the obnoxious and rational-in-name-only, YOU KNOW THE TYPE) would hate gays because he wants to optimize population growth. And yet most atheists I met were chill.

Aside from inherently bigoted ideologies like fascism and paleoconservatism, I do not consider ideology to be the major determining factor if someone is a bellend or not.
Yeaaah, I've seen quite a few atheists replace Christianity with Traditional Western Values and such.  Seems like a lot of them found their way back to the worst kinds of religion in all but name.

Personally I like to think that holding on to my vague spirituality, despite it's irrationality, helped me stay away from such things.
(though being a sexual minority helped (and yet I was "one of the good ones" and full of internalized homophobia for too many years.  There but for the whims of the fey go I...))

Anyway, just wanted to acknowledge that atheists definitely aren't automatically progressive.  A lot of really cool leftists are Christians, they've really helped me be less afraid of the religion as a whole.

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