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Okay, so I have a Sad/Wtf, and this was closer to the top. . .

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My brother is 1 ^1/2 year younger, and in many ways my inferior.  Geneticly he seemed to inherit all (most) of the malfunctions (Cysts, Dissimilar legs, The propensity to migranes, and several others).  He also has my father's aweful Italian looks (I have, surprise the better ones), and mother's poor disposition and antiscoialism (to be fair I have a few select issues, just as alcoholic as my dad).

Anywho, so several widely accepted truths aside, I was always a dick to him.  I was a bit of a bully as a kid, and a dick as an adolescent.  He has led a life more similar to some here than not, and I helped that.  From my earliest memories chasing him around the bedroom to beat him up to informing th store clerk when he stole soda to intorducing him to weed to calling him soft and weak (and a shitbag, or an incompetent lazy punk who holds others back (Game addict, jobless, emotionally unstable) to having sex with no less than half his female friends, I was always there to make his life miserable.  Its one of the big things I regret.

The other day he 'came out' on Facebook.  Which would be fine.  If it was accurate.  He renounced women (I know for a fact he had/has lesbian porn and several select female love interests) and declared it was our stepmother who made him so.  She would always make him clean and cook and mentaly (physically I think too) beat on him.  But he only renounced women because now he lives in a liberal house (he got kicked out of my mother's for insulting her husband and stealing the monies) with a would-be gay author who runs in very particular circles.

I know what some here would be thinking "But he is gay, how do you can you say he isn't?  You aren't him and don't have the right!"  But knowing  him my whole life and having a rubberbandish relationship since high school (It got better when he moved into my mother's) he has told me he was at least bisexual.  He has the mags and a healthy interest in women.  He almost married one last year, for christ'ssake!

I fear he is submitting to peer pressure and further isolating himself from my family and his older friends; and further that I am unable to help him.  Not because he's gay, he doesn't need help that way.  But because he's confused and been beaten around his whole life.  The girl he was supposed to marry turned lesbian after sleeping with him a month or so (It was one of those marriages).  I feel he is awash in all this turmoil and simply needs support (and real therapy)  He has several unresolved issues and has done rash things before in th past, even trying to slice his wrists with a paperclip (when my mother hid the knives).  I want him to live well, but I've damaged our relationship almost too far. . .