Believing something because it's convenient is a pure nonsense.
What are you doing? Trying to alter your perception of reality to make it bearable? That's even worse than the video game you're trying to avoid : at least you were honest with yourself.
Are you honestly calling that mysticism? There is no one out there to hear you payers. You know it as well as me.
You know as well as me that there is billion of poeple that pray to several dozen different god. You know as well as me that the diversity of the answer that they find in prayer make it impossible that prayer work. How shall you cope with that? Are you going to try to believe as much as possible until you've completely fooled yourself?
Gosh you're angry.
So, first off, I don't feel like I shifted to a less valid perception. Thing of the bounded vs. centered sets again- both are reasonable, internally consistent ways to divide people. Both are valid, despite being different. I switched from one to another.
Life was bearable before. It was pretty good. Now it's better. If doing this makes me exercise more, get out into the world, and be nicer and more patient with people, then what, exactly, is your problem with it?
And yes, I do know that someone hears and even responds to my prayers. I don't know if that being is god or myself, but if it's myself, then I have better advice when I approach it that way.
As to the variety of answer to prayers... I have a few answers to that. One is that some people are deceiving themselves into believing their own voice is the voice of god- much as you think I'm doing. Another is that truth really IS subjective- what's true and wise to one may not be to another. I know that in my interactions with the thing I call God, he's been careful to deal with me as I need to be dealt with, given my personality and biases.
Finally, since you went so far as to make assumptions about my motivations and beliefs, I'll extend the same courtesy to you. Right now, you seem to be rather upset because someone you've never met believes something that disagrees with you... so I ask, are your own views and philosophies *really* serving you that well?
So... correct me if I'm reading this wrong (I'm nervous making statements about other peoples beliefs), but it sounds like as you got older, the answers that satisfied you as a child lost meaning, and you became unable to accept specific parts of the scripture you had been handed?
Not so much as when I got older, that all happened about a year ago. The scripture as a whole was taken as infallible though, so I could argue that the entirety of it falls if so much as one part falls.
Way back in the first few posts brought up the whole "Four Stages" thing- sounds like yours was a stage 2 to stage 3 deal?
Not too sure about that. Wasn't paying attention there, since it didn't seem very important.
Oh, just out of curiosity, and excuse me if this is too personal, but... back when you did pray, what did it do for you?
There was a thrill in it, I guess. Don't remember too well, I tend to feel dizzy. Afterward it just felt like a lie.
Thanks. I'm not a fan of organized religions in general, but I do admit to having a softer spot for Islam than for most... good to hear more about it. Anyway, good luck to you.