After over 22 in game years, I finally feel like I have hit the bottom of the barrel with my current fortress. Everything I do seems incredibly futile. There is little hope for success, yet at the same time failure never manages to crush me completley. My fortress is trapped in an eternal twilight.
Allow me to explain the situation; a series of unfortunate events cut down my fortress population to only a handful of dwarves. There was no way to keep them safe on the surface, so I herded them underground into a safety room. There I aimed to train them into hardened soldiers, so that they could stand up to even the toughest of enemies. Fate had other plans though, as I was soon plagued by a foe I can not destroy. A mysterious disease had appeared in my fortress, one that was a guaranteed death sentence. Any dwarf that contracts the disease was fine at first, but soon after they would begin to feel faint. Every inch of their body would suddenly be covered in boils, which would then spray pus and blood all over the floor. The afflicted dwarves wandered aimlessly, leaving a trail of pus and blood behind them before collapsing to the floor as an exploding pile of disease and rot.
I had no way of stopping this disease. I didn't even know what the source was. In a panic, I forced the survivors further underground. In the dark depths of the caverns, I managed to establish a stable outpost. A renewable source of food and drink, along with materials to build with. But the dwarves were trapped, prisoners of the earth. I waited many months, not knowing what to do but continue training the remaining dwarves. Then migrants arrived, and to my joy they did not catch the plague. I quickly herded them underground into the safety of the colony. It was only when they were trapped inside that the disease killed them. All of the migrants suffered gruesome deaths, while the original dwarves remained unharmed. This process repeated itself when a new batch of migrants arrived.
It seems that no matter what I do, I am doomed to be caught in an endless loop of death. Migrants arrive, appear fine, and then turn into festering corpses. Yet the resident dwarves remain fine. As if the game is toying with me, keeping the dwarves alive while killing any chance of me reclaiming the forts former glory. I can't bring myself to abandon when I have played it for so long. And yet I feel trapped, pointlessly hoping for salvation even though I know it will never come.
So at this point, I don't know what to do. I only have 3 stable dwarves. The forgotten beasts outnumber them 4:1. A deadly disease ruins any progress I make. What can I do at this point? I don't want to abandon after spending this much time in the fort, but I don't want to intentionally send my dwarves to their death either. It just seems unfitting