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Before my dad was fired he constantly worked with it.
Though he seems quite inept at anything that arent racks of hipaths...

I could check out if the local "library" has anything like that.

My dad is going to bug the router with some surveylliance program.
That means he can see what im writing.
I said "just gonna use Tor then". He smacked my face, yelled "then ill destroy the router!"
So. Choice A: he can see what i am writing, thus i cant vent out or post about anything and then he can see my username and my past vents. Choice B: no internet, same effect.

Im [--this--] far away from just giving up.

My mom then throws her moses citations at me and tells me that i need to respect her as she respects me. Infringing my privacy, cutting me off from my friends, shoving pop culture and religion down my throat? ..respect? Where?

Now i cant do my homework because her oh-so-serious facebooking and online bible bashing totally needs 100% clearance.
It dosent matter what i do. Hell, as soon as i plug any device on the net they accuse me for anything that is wrong with anything electronic.

Why? Oh why? Why me?

Perkele..

yeah. Lets stop thinking of that [MEMETIC ANOMALY REDACTED]

What would you guys think of if i went into womans clothes and ran around screaming "DWARF FORTRESS REALLY HAS A BIG APPEAL FOR LBGT PEOPLE!!! GO PLAY IT *bundles of sticks*"

Im kinda aiming for working in this field.

Im going to play Shadow President and empty my nuclear arsenal into Denmark.
What do you guys think of that?

Why are nobody ever romantically interested(or sexually attracted) in me? :/
Im not fat, im almost skeletally slender due to my gone-awry metabolism. Im blonde, almost two meters. Im mannered, friendly and talkative. Yet even the saddest asshole around me finds someone. I meet all the criteria presented statistics.

I would have made Hitler proud(thanks god those assholes never won)
I have no congenital ailments or genetic diseases. Physically, im completely perfect.
Can they really see what a twisted tangled mess that my mind is? I hide it behind a franctic smile.

Many of my female aqquaintances claim that i would make a good partner.
Yet i remain lonely.

For fucks sake, i want to die without the notion that the last lips i kissed were those of a psychotic murderer.

Im seen as a tool for people to use,
Seen as a tame companion or docile servant.
Im seen as some strange.being.
Ignored.
But i dont want to be ignored, i dont want to be seen as alien, or some useful idiot, or someones servant, nor a replacement to half-heartedly plug the hole of some fellows otherwise intact heart.
I want people to see how beutiful, caring and feeling i am, what a lover i am, how bright a sun i am, what a.. Person i am. I want to be considered a human being.

I want to feel love. Life. So i can have a meaning with all this.

Hmm dosent Office have some awesome theme? I think i listened to a vuvuzela version once.