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« on: August 19, 2013, 10:05:48 pm »
Er, Joshua? Exactly the same age as you, been in exactly the same situations as you (at least from what you describe). I'm 99% sure that there are other people on this site who have been through the same stuff. We get it. You honestly think you're the only person who wonders if the world would be a better or worse place if you were gone, or never existed at all? You have any idea how many nights I stayed up late, wondering if I could contribute more to the world as a pile of fertilizer and dirt instead of myself as a person? Wanna guess how often I found myself pondering "Could I really hurt myself, or am I too much of a chicken to do it"?
I'm a 24 year old male who has never had a meaningful relationship with another human being. I remember your posts in the happy thread about your dating life; even if they didn't turn out as well as you wanted, they're still far and beyond what I've managed to accomplish. You're taking steps to try and improve your life, and while it may be hard right now you need to stick with it, or find something that works better. You can get out of that pit you're in, and succeed in whatever way you deem meaningful. You just have to keep fighting and never, ever give up.
Well, I don't know what else to say at the moment. I'm not a shrink and I tend to ramble, so if you want to disregard this post go right ahead. Just know that you do in fact have people who support you here.