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« on: March 03, 2018, 05:00:26 pm »
Bernie sighs, sitting down on her bed, facing Idunna seriously this time. She closes her eyes, frowning for a moment.
Idunna really did know how it was, didn't she?
She opens her eyes, fixing her with a serious look.
".....I......know how that feels, a little bit.
Look, I.....I grew up with normal people. People without magic. My family really tried to fit in properly; my mom and dad hid our supernatural ancestry so we could go to a normal school. Then, somehow- I don't know how- but they found out who we were, and......I didn't really have many friends, back home. Real friends, anyway. People were kinda scared of me, you see, or they tried to take advantage of me. Like, they wanted me to solve all their problems, like win them the lottery, or they were scared I'd snap and curse them with chickenpox or something if I got mad. Even my parents were a little worried about it sometimes. They.....made me take classes for it. Self-control, anger management. It wasn't like I was tortured or anything, but....it always made me feel like I stood out too much.
It took.....a lot of effort, really, to get people to look at me as.....me, and not what I am, to convince them I wasn't going to use magic. And I've had to convince everyone my whole life that I wasn't trying to use my magic; sometimes, I couldn't even enter competitions to play the violin, not without people keeping a close eye on me to make sure I wasn't cheating, or signing safety contracts.....it's hard enough growing up with people thinking you'll curse them at the drop of a hat, without people thinking you've cheated to get your talents, to get good at what you love without needing to take a shortcut. You know, the violin's my LIFE, and to think that people won't believe I put as much sweat and tears into being as good at it as they are, to see people tell you that you only won because you cheated when you spent just as much time preparing for it as they did....
Look, what I'm trying to say is, I know where you're coming from. And I'm sorry. I.....honestly didn't know. I should've known better, and I didn't, and it's my fault. I just.....I'd rather not lose you as a friend over something stupid I did."
