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Wacky nerd who never grew up is the best kind of personality =P

Yeah ok, I should have clarified I meant hypomania. It's only ever gotten to the point where it significantly influences my actions, never controlled them. I always remain in slight contact with reality. Right now I'm at the most stable point I've been in my life in years, so I'm not looking for help right now so much as just possibly discussing what is going on. I probably will talk to my specialist the next time I see him about this, but I live in a northern community, so I probably wont see my specialist for another couple months.

Hate, belittle, and feel self entitled?

Edit: And respond to everything with "UMAD BRO?"

2nd Edit: I'm still super upset at my best friend for when I got used for sex and then dumped, instead of being supportive, HAD to inform me that women had sexual needs too... (this is NOT related to the woman I have been talking about lately... I have a history of being used and then discarded...)

In the future, I think this is how I'm going to get my presidential debate coverage from now on.

This is amazing! O.o And you are amazing for sharing this =D

I probably have mentioned before (Maybe not, I haven't been posting here that long) but I possibly have Bi-Polar 2 (I don't think the specialist has formally diagnosed me, but I'm pretty sure he's medicating me as if I have it [He said he thinks I have Bi-Polar 2 before prescribing me Quitiapine and ritalin]) and the depression part fit right in, and I have experience SOME of what everyone thinks mania is like (Euphoric, feeling like everything is right, only slightly detached). But I'm starting to think what I used to just call "stressed out" and "anxious" or more often "Stuck" might be mania as well. Today I feel like I can do no right, and not only that, that I should be doing SOMETHING to fix that. I am anxious, paranoid my actions are failures and that I will be judged for that, and stressed out. I can distract myself from these feelings, but for the most part I can't fix, or escape them. If I am not distracted I will go back to feeling that way (Before my medication it would last until I fell asleep, one of the amazing things my medication has done for me is to be able to move on and return to normal once I reach this point, before them I would be "Stuck" for the rest of the day). Actually, I can get over this feeling now. But I haven't been able to do so on Nightshifts yet due to the social isolation night shifts bring with them. Anyways, back on track, today I'm incrediably anxious, paranoid that I am annoying the crap out of everyone around me, and that I'm not being a good friend to one of my friends that's dealing with a crisis, I'm a bit irritable, and I swear I was seeing things when I drove to work. Does that sound mania-like to someone who has BP?

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your face! (Not directing that at anyone =P)