Well. Let's check the clinical symptoms:
-Lack of appetite
-Apathy
-Irritation/frustration
-Listlessness
-Over sleeping
-Low mood
-Inability to find pleasure in formerly enjoyable activities
There is good news, of course. This little gem, "The most common time of onset is between the ages of 20 and 30 years, with a later peak between 30 and 40 years."
Oh yes. It gets WORSE.
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Can't say much to this really. Dammit.
I find a wry, sick sense of hilarity to the whole thing sometimes. Like, I'll be randomly angry for no reason other than brain chemical derp, and find the whole situation absolutely HILARIOUS in a dark manner.
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I just realized how good a villain I would make. Like, I need to start acting or something, because I would be an absolutely delightful villain. I'm not a psychopath, but I think in the right situations, I can and would be a total sociopath.
In the movie, Seven Psychopaths, I would be the non-psychopath guy that has his dog stolen. Most especially resonant with me is the beginning, where the fat lady that is supposed to walk his dog is begging for her life, and he says, "Well, you DID get my dog stolen..." And fires a shot. About three inches to the left of her head, and says, "I'm just fucking with you. Get the fuck out."
>Gets depressed.
>Finds solace in the fact that said depression lends to a mindset that would make self a very good evil motherfucker.
>That's-probably-not-good.jpeg
Well, recognizing that you have potential, even as being a villain, is a good thing. After all, Christopher Lee has played more villains than anyone ever, and he's pretty awesome.
So you're basically a 'just starting to recognize inner villainy' Christopher Lee.
Isn't that a good thing?