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Entirely the right advice, which is why I've been doing the exact opposite. I think a big reason it's been so difficult for me to even acknowledge that I need to let go of it is the fact that she was the first social connection I made after I purged all my old peer relationships out of a mixture of anxiety and depression - and that's a whole bucket of worms I'm not touching for now. Since then I haven't really become friends with anyone else, probably partially because I had to take some time to get reaccustomed to actually interacting with people, partially because I've kept myself confined to the same few locations due to my bad habit of staying too far in my comfort zone. Home, work, karate. Karate' too far away to do more than idly chat with people there, home is just family and ingrained acceptance of my facing inward, and work I can't really seem to ever get together with anyone outside of it. I'll talk with people there sure, I'd call them friends while I'm there, but once I leave that context not really. Because I never talk with them outside of that there's never anything to talk about.

In conclusion, I've boxed myself in too much and am getting increasingly bored and restless with my current situation. Fortunately I'm improving in that I'm actually doing something about it eventually instead of just accepting it.
Just a matter of time. Once I make some changes and start meeting more people I'll better be able to tell her. Or so I tell myself. Seems to be my best bet for making any meaningful progress, any other way I'm effectively stuck and probably driving myself crazy with excessive thinking.

Like this post. Look how easily I ramble.

Also right now. I should be doing something instead of letting myself slip into a familiar circle of thought. Gotta unlearn that shit. In fact, I'll do that now.

E:
i'm scared of messaging her partially because of the whole try to act like a friend thing and in that context it just seems a bit weird i guess

Being in love with someone and being their friend at the same time is perfectly possible. I've been doing that and keeping my feelings secret from said person for a little under a year and a half now. Been getting worse and worse at the keeping it secret part, and it hurts like a goddamn bitch from time to time from all the repression you have to do, but it's possible.

It's too bad Leo's dead, he would've been our best candidate for Level Mandela.

accidentally smudge the edge of the circle open as you go to class

"Hmm. Living things, eh? You'd think you'd get to trying something bigger than rats after a while. Eh, I suppose I can try it out with a rat at first. Is everyone here, should I start?

Oh dear, that fellow's rather shiny. Maybe I should step behind this here pillar in case of sudden lasers or somesuch."

Go behind a nearby pillar.

Quote from: Xantalos on December 26, 2015, 05:05:37 pm

Quote from: Radio Controlled on December 26, 2015, 05:02:40 pm

I'm pretty sure you only ever get coals. Made of plastics so they poison you when you burn them.

That stopped after I kept donating it to local orphanages.

Now Santa cuts out the middle man and just poisons the orphans himself.

It was only a matter of time before he had to. I mean they kept on asking for such morally pure gifts, like 'a loving family' or 'a mommy'. Where'd the good ol' corrupt consumerist spirit go in these kids?

In this case it went straight to their lungs thanks to fake coal from China, but the point still stands.

I have to know what's in my Christmas present first!
I haven't opened it yet. I bet it's gloves.

"Huh. I guess we'll have to ask around and see what others came in with us, then. 'Cause I think you implied that there's more than just me, you, and the other guy.

After the ritual, though."