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True. It'd probably work too, if I went about it right. I just need to get over my fear of approaching people.
Heh, like that's gonna happen.

Quote from: Xantalos on January 03, 2015, 06:08:31 am

I could post about my uncertain emotional state at present to divert the topic.

What's got our resident horror down?

Rather mundane shit, to be honest. I've been infatuated with a certain girl for about 2-3 years now. There's a whole bunch of stuff in between when I first met her and now, but short version we never really went beyond friends because due to my then-present home situation I was a shy sunovabitch with no real self esteem and I didn't know how to talk to people about romantic stuff, still don't. Haven't talked with her since after I finished high school, but the attraction never really faded, even if I periodically forgot about it for a week or two before I'd see her somewhere or a picture of her on Facebook or whatever and it'd resurface. Funnily enough it helped me talk to other girls since I felt no attraction toward them. It's been in that same situation for several months now, hence my repeated posts being pissed about dopamine. Today I found out I wasn't scheduled for work like I thought I was, so I was gonna go home, but instead of doing that, and knowing that there was no point to doing this, instead of getting on the bus and going home I went and walked by her house for no real reason, since she lives close by my work - I believe, anyway. She may have moved out in the meantime. I then walked back to the bus and went home, having made a ~2 km round trip for no real reason at all. So this is gonna probably just persist until I do something about it, as the problem exists entirely inside my own mind. But I haven't the slightest idea or pretext on which to contact her, so I can't really do anything but stew in this goddamn attraction that won't go away.
Fuckin brains.
Shit, this ended up a huge blurb again. Dang.

I could post about my uncertain emotional state at present to divert the topic.

*poke*

No! Why would I spoil the mystique?

It could be called an oven, yeah.

Is there one extremely close by? Otherwise I'm going to be distracted by some oddity, go on a completely unrelated adventure, and come back about 2 years later with no margarine.