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Quote from: BlackFlyme on August 11, 2014, 10:45:11 pm

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For example, though I haven't posted many of my mods for Dwarf Fortress, the vast majority are slightly altered rips of what others have done or are attempts to recreate things from other media instead of coming up with something that I can actually call mine. My actual attempts at spriting are formless, and I even have difficulty telling what it is I made. The only ones that turn out okay are ones like the kobold sheet I shared in the random art thread, where it was made through the straight copy-pasting of others' work.

Hell, my only published mod started as me responding to a request on the upper boards. Then I sat on it for a few months before I saw Meph and Deon talking about a similar idea, which is when I finally got off of my ass and made a partial effort to clean it up enough to share.

I think my problem may also be due to lack of confidence. Those I had shown my art to when I was younger weren't exactly supportive. My mother hated any non-school art I made. I guess because school related art had a mark on it, which let her know how to respond to it or something. I used to try and draw stuff like knights and monsters from kindergarten to about grade five, and she would always destroy the pictures, calling me fucked in the head for making it in the first place. But drawing things like scenery would prompt her to call me a faggot.

So I didn't draw from grade five until about grade 11 or 12, and then I stopped again because classmates would steal my art and present it as theirs, and my mother's boyfriend's sons got a kick out of using my drawings as rolling papers for their joints. They literally smoked my drawings. Then I tried to start up again just this year in college, drawing in the off time between classes. But after an incident where a girl came up and scribbled on some of my doodles and another where some random guy screamed out that I was a "sick fucking fetishist" for trying to practice drawing hands, I really do not like the idea of creating things that others can see anymore.

At least not stuff that I put actual effort into.

This came out way more ranty than I wanted it to.

What the hell is wrong with the people around you? Do they put liquid asshole in the water or something?