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Quote from: Catsup on May 01, 2013, 10:46:06 pm

i think suicide depends on the amount of emotional pain a person can handle, if they can just resist the pain (and suicide) until they can start reasoning with themselves then theyre in the clear.

No, that assumes that one's reasoning won't become fundamentally corrupted.

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It;s pretty easy to imagine what kind of nightmare could drive a man to suicide.


Not, pain. That's torture, which has implications totally different (notably, Speaking from a religious perspective, ending your life in such a situation isn't suicide, which important to some people).


Just imagine the worst thing that ever happened to you. Ever. Not small things, something like your mother dying. Now the second worst. And the third. Now imagine them all occurring at the same time. Now, imagine that they will never, ever end. The feelings you have are as raw ever single day. Oh, and its all your fault. Throw that in. It's your fault, and you will never, ever be able to fix it.


But in general, it's pretty damn impossible to imagine suicide if you haven't been suicidal. for me it was just total breakdown in my ability to handle a rapidly collapsing situation. It wasn't any one thing, that I could handle, it was everything, at once, simultaneously collapsing. It wasn't a massive negative on my life, it was the collapsing positives. Taking away the things you are proud of.

You spend all this time building your rocket in KSP.  Some people spend hours getting everything just right (I'm more of a throw everything together quickly and pray it reaches space type).

But when their center off mass is off and they spent hours painstakingly putting it together, seeing your center of mass is off(as if flies into a mountainside) I'm sure is downright painful.

He's talking about Kerbal Space Program, which is an indy game that allows you to build a generally accurate sim of how to get to space.  It's available off of Steam (I think) and there's a thread in Other Games if you're interested.  Haven't played it myself, so my knowledge is limited.

I completely made the term up. But what they did is put some rats in a bucket, press it to a guy's belly, and heat up the other end of the bucket.

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rats don't like the heat

Quote from: Catsup on May 01, 2013, 07:30:07 pm

i cant really think of a circumstance where i would consider suicide at all...

I recommend taking a few points in creativity when you next level up :3

Over a breakup? Yeah, they've got some serious problems. But it has to do with why they would suicide over something that petty. I'd say a justifiable reason to an hero because of a breakup is about as common as a white whale.

;_;

The might have gotten here before us, but we called 'Shotgun!'

So, I basically feel like crap, in just about all areas of my life.

The worst part is, I realize that my being down all the time is hurting me and making me even more sad than I am right now.

I think I'm starting to annoy the guy I'm dating by being kind of mopey. I believe he's doing one of those deals where he isn't saying it to be nice, but he's not hanging out with me anymore very much at all, etc.

Having no self esteem messes up your work performance as well, so that's really not good either. I haven't been able to do very much but go through the motions for a few months and yesterday I didn't do anything. This really is not good.

Socially, I've pretty much not seen any of my friends in quite some time and I'm more or less being a bit of a hermit right now. I am basically not talking to anybody because I am afraid I would be seen as whining. The problem with not talking to anybody or just saying the bare minimum is that I'm pretty sure I come across as if I'm being stuck up or something. People don't want to talk to me and I can't exactly blame them.

I don't project any confidence in myself at all and even faking it is very very difficult at times.

I really don't think I can afford to see a psychiatrist or therapist right now, and while I feel bad about the idea of asking for something for free, I wouldn't even know where to ask for that.