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Eric Blank

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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5550 on: February 15, 2019, 12:44:35 am »

Goddamnit now im sick and i still havent gotten confirmation one way or the other on my health insurance
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« Reply #5551 on: February 15, 2019, 04:34:30 am »

My mom is making it more clear by the day that she can't support herself in her crippled old age, and if she's to have any quality of life period in the future she'll need my direct monetary support. I have part time job just above minimum wage, which while very stable, is just barely enough to support myself with a little money for saving and small luxuries. Supporting my Mom (and possibly my sister? She's still young at 17, but doesn't exactly have a can-do attitude) is literally impossible.

I don't know if there's any government assistance that can be pursued that hasn't already been exhausted, but I'm thinking my Mom has dried up those options. I'm thinking it falls squarely on my shoulders to make sure she doesn't die poor and miserable.

To secure a better paying job, I have two ideas: College and Military.

My idea of college is it is both an enormous gamble, and very scam-like in nature. My scholastic credentials are very weak, so I'm thinking the only way to really succeed in this path would be to chase it with reckless abandon, to focus on it with all my energy; for an outcome that might not pay off. I'm reluctant to pursue this option.

My military-loving friend suggests that I join the Air Force. Honestly it's not a bad idea, it would provide pretty much everything I've ever wanted in life: a standard of discipline and fitness, a real mental and physical challenge to apply myself to, the potential for prestige and honor, the necessary beating and hazing into manhood I was denied as a child, the possibility of male friendship and camaraderie that I've always dreamed of, and finally a non-deadend future with the education and job opportunities I'd undoubtedly receive along the way. If I succeeded there, I'd get pretty much everything I've ever wanted, in addition to being able to support my Mom.

One thing holding me back, is simply that I hate the idea of becoming a killer of men. Even if I enter a totally non-combat role, I feel I'd be complicit with the people that are basically paid murderers. Now, that wouldn't be such an enormous hurdle, as I agree with the necessity of a military, and that necessity just means people are going to die at the hands of other people, but it's totally sickening that the role's commander and chief is an orange idiot asshole, and any position in the military means I'm ultimately just a peon to somebody who frankly doesn't deserve that kind of loyalty. Pursuing the idea basically means, to me, that I've been bribed to be a pissant. It's a very degrading thought, to say the least.

I perhaps have the wrong idea, I don't want to come off as condescending to hard working people who definitely deserve respect, but that's how it seems to me. Though if I'm being stupid, and I sure feel I am, feel free to point out my stupidity.
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5552 on: February 15, 2019, 05:13:46 am »

So, here's the thing... Military work is really not that prestigious. Now, the U.S. does seem to have a lot of goodies as far as economic support goes, specifically in order to attract more low-income or disadvantaged families and pad out the ranks.

Chair Force is indeed probably one of the best slices to get into, but you need to realize that regardless of where you end up in the military, you will still be in the military... And some things really just do not change across the different areas.

The "peon to someone undeserving of loyalty" thing? That's one or two levels of separation, not a dozen. And that's completely irrespective of whoever happens to be president at the time.

The upper leadership and higher officers will always be a bunch of namby numbskulls who are entirely removed from reality. The middle leadership will occasionally have one or two individuals of passing competence who managed to slip through the cracks, but mostly it's a horde of unwitting and insecure war college degrees. Lower leadership is the soup of quintessential dumbfucks you rely upon to survive, and you will grow to understand that their mating calls mean that someone is definitely going to get fucked.

And don't get me started on your fellow lump-nutted grunts at the bottom rung. Holy fuck, such stupidity was a not meant to be grasped by man.


So, basically... Yes, it's possible for the military to help provide for your family. It's specifically engineered to be one of the best options for people with few options. You're probably still going to have to fight them on a few things in order to get all the fringe benefits, and military bureaucracy is a thing of goddamned awe. Butts entirely made of experimental ultra-dense heavy metals, all the way up and down and to the sides. So, yeah, you can get some really good programs, but you will definitely have to put a lot of time and energy into getting them.

Secondly, it will not be prestigious. It will not be glorious. It will not make sense. You can rest easy about being able to get into a role where your job is not even tangentially related to someone somewhere getting killed, but this is mostly because it's entirely possible and even likely that you can end up in a job that isn't related to anything at all and serves no purpose other than to exist as an effort in futility (but God save your puny soul if you don't put all of your energy into the thing). You will be surrounded by a rigorous and expansive system of mutual support and experienced hierarchy that is wholly populated by a species not entirely dissimilar to humans, were it not for the fact that the entirety of their nervous system is preoccupied with the difficult task of vacuuming the air for trace minerals, in a fashion imitating (but entirely less sophisticated than) the act of breathing through one's mouth.


The thing is, you're a thinking person. As a thinking person, a great deal of the military will make no sense to you. It's definitely still a career opportunity, but you need to be aware that it won't really agree with you on a personal level, and that you therefore should not take things personally. This is quite difficult. It can take years to fully develop the apathy required to excel.

There are plenty of resources available to someone working in the military, but it is a really dirty job to extract those resources, and as such it's important to dispel the notion that it's a functional or respectable system. It makes life so much easier once you stop expecting the military to actually work.

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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5553 on: February 15, 2019, 06:15:19 am »

There isn't a public pension in the US?
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5554 on: February 15, 2019, 06:51:16 am »

There isn't a public pension in the US?
Technically, it exists. However, Social Security is laughably inadequate and in most cases cannot cover even basic food and shelter expenses for one person. Individuals are instead expected to arrange private retirement plans through their employers, and to invest savings in personal accounts.

Naturally, those with the lowest incomes who are most in need of outside assistance will generally find it either difficult or simply unfeasible to spare the extra expenses of saving up for such an account.


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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5555 on: February 15, 2019, 08:48:20 am »

You mentioned colleve, but how do you feel about trade schools? If that is the English word. I mean stuff like electricians, plumbers, building carpenters.
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5556 on: February 15, 2019, 02:25:49 pm »

That would be okay, if you could survive the financial burdens of working an unpaid internship (an apprenticeship, i tuink they still call it) for a year after graduation.

Im currently stuck in a ditch because i got too close to the edge of the road and the snow caught my tire. Fuck me.
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5557 on: February 15, 2019, 03:01:53 pm »

You get preference on hiring after you get out in the US.

You are not supposed to, but a lot of businesses get breaks if they hire veterans. Also you get free food at Applebees sometimes. It would almost certainly solve the financial problems you state. Also, it's difficult to come out of it without an increased skill in self-discipline.

Also, no matter how soul-crushing you think it's going to be, it's going to be worse. Much worse.
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5558 on: February 15, 2019, 03:20:32 pm »

My performance review has been pushed back.  I was going to use it to complain about my reviewer not approving my projects fast enough.  I guess I'll just sit here like a lump all day again.
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5559 on: February 15, 2019, 10:07:21 pm »

That would be okay, if you could survive the financial burdens of working an unpaid internship (an apprenticeship, i tuink they still call it) for a year after graduation.

Im currently stuck in a ditch because i got too close to the edge of the road and the snow caught my tire. Fuck me.
You gonna be okay? Need an uber call?
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5560 on: February 16, 2019, 12:51:00 am »

We escaped, after a couple hours. The rescue vehicle slid off the road trying to pull me out, so someone else happened along on their way to work and pulled him out and gave us their tow strap (our stupid rope kept snapping). Next time they come in to the store ill have to give that back to them and buy them a bottle of liquor.
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5561 on: February 16, 2019, 02:32:36 am »

We escaped, after a couple hours. The rescue vehicle slid off the road trying to pull me out, so someone else happened along on their way to work and pulled him out and gave us their tow strap (our stupid rope kept snapping). Next time they come in to the store ill have to give that back to them and buy them a bottle of liquor.
Glad to hear you're okay. :)
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5562 on: February 16, 2019, 04:42:36 am »

fukken pointless anxiety aaaa

brain says 'panic, everything is wrong' but i ask brain 'what exactly is wrong about everything' and it's all 'reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee'

I realize that a baseless anxiety feeding into fear of where I'm at and where I will be have probably driven my compulsion to avoid commitment and that I won't be happy with where I'm at, wherever I happen to be or whatever I happen to be doing, until I either distract myself from it or find some way to handle it.

I did leave to get away from the phantasms of my old life and relationship, and that worked to a point, except that while the place is different, I'm still the same, and many of those same ghosts haunt not my old apartment and sleepy town, but me. I can't run away from me.

Me is my own worst enemy, I s'pose.

In happier sad news, I realize that, romantically speaking, I might maybe be becoming my dad. Mom helpfully overshared that he has a thing for high boots, I've inherited the thing for thigh-high socks, my date is a little hapless when it comes to cooking, Dad did all the cooking back home, as probably will I, his favorite band is Depeche Mode, they're one of mine too, guess what's put on as things get spicy, etc etc.

Real awkward, it's not helping my psyche at all even though things are smooth sailing with the kiwi gal. It's funny, really, but just unshakeably awkward. Pointlessly frantic brain needs something to dig into, right?
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« Reply #5563 on: February 17, 2019, 08:18:11 am »

After two decades of having crippling anxiety related to job applications and being convinced I would never be able to hold down a job... I think I like working.  And finance, and even entrepreneurship, seem interesting to me.  What I'm saying is I think my liberal arts ass probably would have enjoyed being a business major.  I don't think I would have learned as much as my actual major, but holy shit that would have been an easier path in life.
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Re: Things that made you mildly sad today thread
« Reply #5564 on: February 17, 2019, 07:04:48 pm »

I haven't been on this site in, like, two years or something like that. It's kind of sad, because now I can't remember jack about anything or anyone except grisha5.
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