But this sounds like you have the opportunity to take some time to breathe and care for yourself completely, and not have to worry about another person? Loneliness is a real killer though, I feel that. I hope things with this girl conclude with the least amount of hurt.
I hope so too, and I'm believing less and less that it's going to go particularly well. Guess we'll just have to see come Sunday.
As for caring for myself, well... That's something I really, really don't like doing. I'm trying, but I hate every moment of it. I really don't think that I deserve it.
Anyways, hairdresser appointment today, going to make some big changes.
EDIT: Wait, wait, I've got an image saved that describes some of how I've been feeling the past few weeks. Lemme just... Ah, there it is.
EDIT2: In other news, I'm required to inform the social system of any changes to my living arrangements, so I told them about my moving out from my ex's place and into a new address where I'd be living alone. I figured that living alone might mean that I'd get a slightly higher amount in disability, since I'm not splitting the rent with anyone.
Apparently, the social system thought I
was living alone and was paying me accordingly. So now they're "increasing" my amount to what I've been getting the whole time, and then going to send me a bill for how much they
overpaid me the rest of the year.