So y'all might remember my thread from a few months back, about how I rambled how I thought I might be nonbinary and all that jazz, but it didn't really stick with me so I settled on being "male and effeminate" or "male but not masculine".
Well, these gender-shenanigans woes are back, and this time it's a much more...feminine.
Because medical/legal transitioning is not in the cards for me right now (and may never be, sadly), I'm currently in a test run sorta period of "hey let's use feminine pronouns and terminology to refer to myself with, and get a more feminine name* and all that", but unlike my previous nonbinary test run, this actually resonates with me much, much more.
I've also talked to quite a few transfolk, on here and elsewhere (*waves at Flan, spumpkin*) and joined a few trans-focused Discord servers, and even though I'm still less than a week in, I really do feel very comfortable with it so far, even though I can pretty much only be 'out' on the internet and even then only in places in which I feel comfortable doing that.
Which I know, does not invalidate my identity, but still.
* - Said name being River (or more fully, River Michaela Sobota), which many people told me is Super Cute™. ;w;
But it all feels weird since previously I wasn't even suspecting that I might be transfeminine 'at heart'. Like I wasn't super into 'girly' things when I was younger (though I was certainly not very 'boyish' either...just kinda a weak little sensitive nerd, and I still am pretty much exactly that.), but now that I've given it a shot for like 3-4 days (and don't feel absolutely repulsed by the idea - quite the opposite, even) I might just...stick with it, I guess? Even though it might be really awkward for a while because like I said, I'm not in a position where IRL transitioning is really plausible for me, and I haven't even come out to my mom or pretty much anyone around here, though I plan on telling at least my psychologist about it and see what she thinks about it.
Soo yeah, I'm relatively confident and content right now, so this is just a somewhat happy-ish rambly sorta thread more than anything with pretty much zero logical flow or structure, but I hope that there's enuogh to it that it conveys a vaguely coherent message.
Also I'm gay...Ace...Sex-repulsed...homoromantic...GIRLS.
Author
Topic: River Rambles, or Mes' Gender Woes Part 2: Transfeminine Boogaloo (Read 923 times)