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« Reply #122280 on: March 18, 2024, 04:17:30 am »

It's always such a sticky subject. Like, how do you punish children that commit such a heinous crime? It reminds me of those girls that stabbed their friend to death over the slenderman thing. Like how do you rehabilitate that. Is it possible to rehabilitate children with such hate in their heart? I mean, they're going to get out when they're 23 (possible sooner, I don't know how parole works in the Chinese criminal justice system), and they're most definitely not going to be well adjusted members of society.

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« Reply #122281 on: March 18, 2024, 12:32:26 pm »

Anxiety induced dissociation! Hooray!

It feels like I'm drunk without the pleasantness.

EDIT: Wound up with my last choice for third year dissertation supervisor.

Rather than something I'm even remotely interested in, I'm stuck with something I actively hate. I've got someone who does desk-based statistical modelling.

EDIT 2: Aaaaaand the wellies I ordered that were supposed to arrive for in-store pickup today... haven't! Hoo fucking ray, I'm going to get my feet fucking soaked tomorrow wandering around a goddamn bog because this is the first fucking time I've needed wellies or walking boots and not brought them with me from home, because I've *never* had to use the fucking things in almost ten years of stays-away-from-home.

This was the last resort as well, literally nowhere around here sells them in-store. I've spent hours and hours and hours wandering around looking for the fucking things in every likely and unlikely store I could find. The alternative is buying a new pair of walking boots for a horrendous amount of money so I can use them a grand total of once.

Not like I live in a country where it rains a stupid amount and mud and water are frequent fucking issues. Nope, apparently the UK is like a fucking desert and nobody needs to fucking concern themselves with dry cunting feet. Wellies are a specialist item here and expecting to be able to pick some up from one of the myriad stores in a city is absolutely insane!
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« Reply #122282 on: March 20, 2024, 03:11:35 pm »

Had a pleasant visit with a new endocrinologist.  I've been anxious about it, but they signaled acceptance in a lot of ways and I relaxed and was honest, and honestly learned some things.  It was a huge relief.

Afterwards I sat in the waiting room and finished the intake form.  Got to the questions about anxiety, thoughts of self-harm, supportive friends :) and supportive family :(
Suddenly had a really bad "allergy", liquid was streaming from my eyes and nose.  I was quiet and masked but someone still noticed and brought me a box of tissues.  Very kind of them.

My partner suggested I get ice cream.  I was thinking bread.  I compromised with blueberry waffles and feel a lot better now.
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« Reply #122283 on: March 20, 2024, 03:30:56 pm »

One of my 11 year old cats is very sick, with anemia and jaundice.  The vet thinks she has a hemotrophic mycoplasma infection, so they sent her blood off to test and sent us home with some antibiotics.  She may need a blood transfusion, but I have no idea how the vet will schedule that since they're booked up for normal appointments though early April.

She's still eating some, but not enough for a cat her size.  I'm worried she won't get help before it's too late.  Or, worse, if the blood test comes back negative, since that would mean the vet has no idea what's wrong with her.

This is the worst thing about pets.  I'm pretty sure she's not going to survive.
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« Reply #122284 on: March 20, 2024, 11:55:58 pm »

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« Reply #122285 on: March 22, 2024, 10:57:41 am »

One of my 11 year old cats is very sick, with anemia and jaundice.  The vet thinks she has a hemotrophic mycoplasma infection, so they sent her blood off to test and sent us home with some antibiotics.  She may need a blood transfusion, but I have no idea how the vet will schedule that since they're booked up for normal appointments though early April.

She's still eating some, but not enough for a cat her size.  I'm worried she won't get help before it's too late.  Or, worse, if the blood test comes back negative, since that would mean the vet has no idea what's wrong with her.

This is the worst thing about pets.  I'm pretty sure she's not going to survive.

And we had to euthanize her last night.  She improved a little, then rapidly and severely declined.  The emergency vet did blood work that determined she'd gone septic, so there was essentially nothing that could be done to realistically help her at that point.

All we know is that the mycoplasma test came back negative.  The vet mentioned she might have had lymphoma, which tracks with her muscle wasting over the previous few weeks, but I don't know if it would led to sepsis.  That may have been caused by a secondary severe underlying infection from the immune dysfunction.  I don't know.

Putting her down was very hard, but it had to be done.  Sometimes I think having pets is a mistake.
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« Reply #122286 on: March 22, 2024, 11:20:38 am »

That's always the worst, when you have a sick animal and you take a hail mary (and pay for it) and they seem to do ok initially but then crash right afterward.

I had a cat that had a thyroid issue. We sent him in for radiation treatment, which meant he sat in a biohazard room for 3 days while they shot radiation at him to try and deal with his thyroid.

We brought him home and he was doing ok for about 2 days, then he quickly crashed and we put him down.

It costs like $3000 to do it, and when I saw him in the radiation containment room he looked so miserable it broke my heart.

In retrospect I almost wish we had just let him get worse at home, then euthanized him. Because at least he would have not had to deal with that trauma.
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« Reply #122287 on: March 22, 2024, 03:18:55 pm »

Yeah.  I was pretty convinced she had cancer before I even took her to her primary vet earlier this week since she'd had muscle loss, and was already trying to imagine what I'd do when we paid an unbelievable sum to get to that diagnosis only to be faced with the prospect of even more expensive surgery or chemotherapy for a chance she might live a little longer.

Your experience isn't far off from from what happened to her brother a couple of years ago.  His case was absolutely tragic.  His initial presentation was just not wanting to eat, and his initial diagnosis was an ear infection.  Antibiotics helped but he never recovered his appetite.  We ended up taking him to the specialist emergency room for dehydration, and that led to a spiraling chain of expensive tests and procedures because they thought he had cancer.  Ultimately they determined he just had fluid in his middle ear and needed for it to be drained.  The specialist couldn't do it for like 10 days, during which time he declined to the point of no return.  I finally called my primary vet only to find out they could have done the same procedure from day one.  They tried it, and it helped.  He recovered his appetite that night, but the damage was done.  Kidney failure led to a fatal blood clot on the second day after and we had to put him down.

It was a horrendous and traumatizing experience of watching a cat slowly die over the course of 3 weeks while trying to give him medicine he didn't want.  We ended up spending more trying to save him than I spent on my last car.

And for nothing.

I don't really blame the vet for the cost, but it was a very educational experience in more than one way.  First, I learned to ask more questions and to try to work with my primary vet more.  Second, I learned that sometimes you just have to let them go.
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« Reply #122288 on: March 22, 2024, 04:21:06 pm »

Losing them isn't easy, you really have my sympathy.
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« Reply #122289 on: March 24, 2024, 09:23:42 am »

I was having a dream, got in a fight and kicked at the guy. Ended up kicking a hole through my very fragile old window. Taped that up with plastic sheeting. Now I get to figure out how to replace the panel with the spare.
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« Reply #122290 on: March 26, 2024, 07:48:10 am »

My gran's dementia's getting worse fast. It's getting to my mum, which is then getting to me.

Right shitty disease man.
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« Reply #122291 on: March 29, 2024, 10:15:01 am »

We always have a ton of stray cats around work. I've befriended several over the years. Even rescued one.

I've seen them come, and go. Seen some get rescued, seen some get hit by cars.

Today I just met a juvenile who clearly was someone's lost cat. I summoned them from across the street and they came running straight over and face bumped me. Clean, friendly, smelled like perfume. Clearly someone's lost pet.

I went to go get some cat food for them and when I came back out, they were gone.

Best of luck little guy <sadface>
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« Reply #122292 on: March 30, 2024, 12:42:14 pm »

My gran's dementia's getting worse fast. It's getting to my mum, which is then getting to me.

Right shitty disease man.

You definitely have my sympathies here.  I've had this happen to two of my grandparents and seen the effects on my parents too.  It's terrible.
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« Reply #122293 on: March 31, 2024, 12:19:45 pm »

Having computer trouble today.

Apparently one of my RAM modules is misbehaving/going bad.  (This is OK-ish, I can patch around it with a special kernel invocation line to disable the bad memory area, which I have done. I have oodles of memory installed, so disabling a chunk is OK. I will refine the disabled chunk's size a bit later, after more thorough testing... but 10gb of 64gb disabled still leaves 54gb. That's still plenty. )

the ISSUE, is that it caused data corruption in my /home folder, which was not recoverable.

Had to reformat /home.

Now I will spend all the rest of the weekend redownloading my steam library.

Hurray.
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« Reply #122294 on: April 01, 2024, 05:27:15 pm »

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