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[TD1]

Gotta go back to school tomorrow. And I really don't want to. It's getting really intense, with exams coming up.

[Neonivek]

Also I miss Indiana Jones...

I miss their point and clicks...

Indiana Jones got ONE great point and click (Two games, but only one was great).

[Parsely]

I miss the Xbox original games. The brawling was fantastic. And you could whip motherfuckers and pull them down and choke them and steal their guns.

[Jopax]

It didn't rain today, it was partly cloudy, and rather windy, so perfect for drying clothes and laundry, so I put them in the washing machine. They are done, and it has started raining minutes ago...

[Knit tie]

Oh god, I don't even know what to say...

Have you tried telling that to your parents?

[flame99]

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 I feel horrible and stressed and scared. And tired. Not physically tired, but tired of everything. Of school. Of people. Of climbing a hill to find a mountain on the other side. Of never being able to stay happy for long before something bad happens. Of life.

I don't wanna be scared of everyone and everything.
I don't want to feel guilty about everything.
I don't want to be so stressed about everything.
I don't want to be tired.
I don't want to hate myself for being me.

_{Help me please.}

Do you know what's causing you to feel like this?

Regardless, my best advice would be to step back and realize one simple thing: At the end of the day, whatever you do in life is valid. Oh, sure, some people will tell you there's only one "right" thing and everything else is "wrong", but life isn't so black and white. However you live, whoever you are, whatever you choose, and everything else in life is, at the end of the day, the precisely correct answer to the questions of life, because the only person who can judge whether something is right or wrong for you is you.
If there's something you're scared of, then do something about it. Confront it, tell someone you trust about it, or do something else to free yourself of it.
As far as guilt goes, remember that most of the stuff that happens in life isn't actually your fault. It will feel like it is, I know, but it's not. I'm not saying to take no responsibility for your actions, but don't take responsibility for other's actions.
The last three is harder to help with without more details on your situations.

Remember that when all is said and done, CMega, there's an army of people sitting behind a computer screen hoping that everything goes well for you. Some claim that online friends don't really count, and these people couldn't be more wrong. People who I've never met in real life, who I've not even so much as seen pictures of, have helped me make some huge decisions about myself and life, and I never would have made it through with my sanity intact if it hadn't been for them.

[Xantalos]

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 I feel horrible and stressed and scared. And tired. Not physically tired, but tired of everything. Of school. Of people. Of climbing a hill to find a mountain on the other side. Of never being able to stay happy for long before something bad happens. Of life.

I don't wanna be scared of everyone and everything.
I don't want to feel guilty about everything.
I don't want to be so stressed about everything.
I don't want to be tired.
I don't want to hate myself for being me.

_{Help me please.}

Do you know what's causing you to feel like this?

Regardless, my best advice would be to step back and realize one simple thing: At the end of the day, whatever you do in life is valid. Oh, sure, some people will tell you there's only one "right" thing and everything else is "wrong", but life isn't so black and white. However you live, whoever you are, whatever you choose, and everything else in life is, at the end of the day, the precisely correct answer to the questions of life, because the only person who can judge whether something is right or wrong for you is you.
If there's something you're scared of, then do something about it. Confront it, tell someone you trust about it, or do something else to free yourself of it.
As far as guilt goes, remember that most of the stuff that happens in life isn't actually your fault. It will feel like it is, I know, but it's not. I'm not saying to take no responsibility for your actions, but don't take responsibility for other's actions.
The last three is harder to help with without more details on your situations.

Remember that when all is said and done, CMega, there's an army of people sitting behind a computer screen hoping that everything goes well for you. Some claim that online friends don't really count, and these people couldn't be more wrong. People who I've never met in real life, who I've not even so much as seen pictures of, have helped me make some huge decisions about myself and life, and I never would have made it through with my sanity intact if it hadn't been for them.

+76785875674865764674865674864765824482746254782642846

It's like he actually appreciated the Star Wars EU or something.

* Sirus raises his head

Did I hear Star Wars EU?

I just hated large amounts of it.
Mara Jade, for instance.
Every Skywalker.
Most of the good guys.
The Vong.
Starkiller.
Almost everything except stuff with Mace Windu and/or Yoda in it, really.
Oh, and Bastila Shan. Killed her in every playthrough.

That's...quite a lot of it

HA HA HA!

Sorry Starkiller isn't part of the expanded universe, he is part of the main universe.

I actually like to mention Starkiller whenever someone bad mouths the expanded universe for having a few bad books... Because Starkiller is part of the main universe and his story is nonsense too.

Ohh and fixing Mitichlorians? Expanded universe. Hope you enjoy your force being caused by a bacterial infection EU bashers

Nope, Disney retconned basically everything apart from the movies and the 2008 clone wars series, including Starkiller.
And I actually liked the midichlorians, unlike practically everyone else, who kinda seem to misunderstand what they do.

[Knit tie]

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 I feel horrible and stressed and scared. And tired. Not physically tired, but tired of everything. Of school. Of people. Of climbing a hill to find a mountain on the other side. Of never being able to stay happy for long before something bad happens. Of life.

I don't wanna be scared of everyone and everything.
I don't want to feel guilty about everything.
I don't want to be so stressed about everything.
I don't want to be tired.
I don't want to hate myself for being me.

_{Help me please.}

Do you know what's causing you to feel like this?

Regardless, my best advice would be to step back and realize one simple thing: At the end of the day, whatever you do in life is valid. Oh, sure, some people will tell you there's only one "right" thing and everything else is "wrong", but life isn't so black and white. However you live, whoever you are, whatever you choose, and everything else in life is, at the end of the day, the precisely correct answer to the questions of life, because the only person who can judge whether something is right or wrong for you is you.
If there's something you're scared of, then do something about it. Confront it, tell someone you trust about it, or do something else to free yourself of it.
As far as guilt goes, remember that most of the stuff that happens in life isn't actually your fault. It will feel like it is, I know, but it's not. I'm not saying to take no responsibility for your actions, but don't take responsibility for other's actions.
The last three is harder to help with without more details on your situations.

Remember that when all is said and done, CMega, there's an army of people sitting behind a computer screen hoping that everything goes well for you. Some claim that online friends don't really count, and these people couldn't be more wrong. People who I've never met in real life, who I've not even so much as seen pictures of, have helped me make some huge decisions about myself and life, and I never would have made it through with my sanity intact if it hadn't been for them.

+1 from Russia.

[Tiruin]

Tell them directly that their attitude is also a primary cause of your state of mind :/
They should know, other than blame everything else around and point at a computed 'grade' based on human tests...which don't actually have holistic basis on intellect or prowess.

[Frumple]

... yeah, I probably would strongly suggest not doing that. Not without a backup plan and somewhere else to stay. That sort of direct confrontation has an entirely too non-zero chance of getting a person kicked out of their house, or into some very, very deep shit in other ways.

Just... no, T. That sort of discussion only works when you're either at a relatively equal level in regards to parity of power or the people on the other side of the discussion actually give a damn about your view of things. From what C's said in the past, neither of those are true. C's got environmental hazard parents. Not the sort you can talk with.

[Tiruin]

Just... no, T. That sort of discussion only works when you're either at a relatively equal level in regards to parity of power or the people on the other side of the discussion actually give a damn about your view of things. From what C's said in the past, neither of those are true. C's got environmental hazard parents. Not the sort you can talk with.

Well I...yeah, I know his background too but I still have to try :/
I mean...yeah >_> But still. There's that note that I feel like C's parents are under some kind of idea regarding him. It's vague to describe enough here. :\

^{Also...the idea you give is pretty much alien to me (ie the get away from home) as, while those stuffs do happen here, 99% of the people who would be in the same situation as this (parent-side) ...(?)are not that harsh(?)}

[gman8181]

... yeah, I probably would strongly suggest not doing that. Not without a backup plan and somewhere else to stay. That sort of direct confrontation has an entirely too non-zero chance of getting a person kicked out of their house, or into some very, very deep shit in other ways.

Just... no, T. That sort of discussion only works when you're either at a relatively equal level in regards to parity of power or the people on the other side of the discussion actually give a damn about your view of things. From what C's said in the past, neither of those are true. C's got environmental hazard parents. Not the sort you can talk with.

Sadly true in some circumstances. Depends on the people.

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 I feel horrible and stressed and scared. And tired. Not physically tired, but tired of everything. Of school. Of people. Of climbing a hill to find a mountain on the other side. Of never being able to stay happy for long before something bad happens. Of life.

I don't wanna be scared of everyone and everything.
I don't want to feel guilty about everything.
I don't want to be so stressed about everything.
I don't want to be tired.
I don't want to hate myself for being me.

_{Help me please.}

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I'm not a doctor but anxiety issues maybe? The stressed makes me think anxiety and anxiety is very often linked with depression.

Again not a doctor but maybe consider looking up anxiety issues and seeing if you think the symptoms line up well with what you have experienced. If so look up what type of treatment options you could possibly take yourself. I know personally that some things that can help with anxiety are getting enough sleep (but not excessive amounts), dietary improvements, more exercise (even just taking small walks by yourself), taking vitamins (a daily multivitamin works well) and maybe even a stress care supplement (not even something prescribed but just another vitamin type pill designed to give energy and alleviate stress symptoms). Needless to say you might not want to or not be able to fit any of those things into your life but it might help to try maybe at least two of them to see if you notice any improvements.

[Frumple]

Mm. Well, cultural differences, T. Maybe it's not as bad where C is, I'unno. But my family ended up putting a friend up for a few weeks at one point, back in early high school. Stuff like that... isn't uncommon*, at least in my area. Even without full eviction, it's usually an incredibly good idea to have somewhere else to go for a few days, in case they blow up or react incredibly badly. Other family, friends, etc. You don't get into conflict with the people providing you shelter and legally more-or-less your owner without a fall back plan. Especially when they already have a history of antagonism.

*Though remember... 99% of the time? That means that in a town of 500, you'll have at least five folks it ends up happening to. And that is a tiny, tiny town. There were definitely more than five in such situations where I was at, though, and it wasn't much larger than that.

[mastahcheese]

So, yeah. I don't really know how exactly to put this.

A lot of things are happening, lately, and now they've started to combine and compound on each other.
My back has been hurting, due to my narrow spine.
I've tried to mention this to people, and asked them to please try to not have me need to do anything that would strain my back.
Today, I had to carry a 30 pound bag of charcoal up a hill, and carry a small banana tree, that for some utterly arcane reason was planted in a solid, cast-iron planter. I don't even know how much that thing weighed, but if was clearly far heavier than the bag of charcoal.
So after this, I decided that I would spend a nice, long time laying down, and not doing anything.
So naturally, they needed me to immediately go run off and drive halfway across town to get some bread, because they completely forgot it, even though they were reminded approximately 8 times, over the course of the past week.
The thing is, I think it's pretty clear that they are not listening to me.

Another thing, I've mentioned that I very rarely actually talk, and that this is "too much" for the people I'm around, and they say that all I do is complain.
So I've mentioned this to someone I know, that it really bothers me when people say that, when I'm still trying my best to help, despite the pain.

So the advice I got was "Then don't complain."

...I'm seriously wondering as to why I don't just sew my mouth shut, as that seems to be heavily desired.

Also I can't think clearly because of allergies starting up now, but that seems rather minor in comparison.

[flame99]

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...
Wow.
Somebody somewhere should be really f***ing happy that you and I probably live nowhere near each other, because otherwise, somebody would currently have a very good idea of what their internal organs look like.