Yes, very yes. If I hear one more "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" speech from them, then my shoelaces are going to start looking like strangulation hazards....
The same people who give me "advice" (poison), are the same ones who would call me an asshole if I actually went through with that on them.... I've taken to impolite mockery and screaming when necessary, because fuck people, all people.
In summary:
This is a pretty personal story, but I wanted to illustrate just how deep that kind of thing gets and how bad it can be.
I OD'd in an attempt to kill myself in umm 2001, maybe 2002. I was committed.
At one point I had a relapse where the medication in my body caused me to hallucinate and just have a psychotic episode again.
I saw nurses across the hall in a darkened room, and they were laughing at me and telling me I was faking the whole thing. I started screaming at them that I really was sick and it was real and the next thing I know I'm strapped to a gurney and they are talking about putting me in a padded cell.
So even when you have done something that is pretty obvious proof that these things are killing you, it will be in your mind eating away at you that you should have just sucked it up, and it's not real.
I wish I had advice to help prevent that, but I still don't know how.
All I can say is, do what you can to remind yourself that what they are saying is wrong and bad, and try to seek out a therapist when you get the chance so you have someone to talk to. (though part of your problem might actually be what they are telling you. That will definitely make the situation worse.)
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