I guess being at the bottom of the social food chain for most-all my life made me a tad of a hostile/bitter person to be around that generally likes to be alone (or more like prefers; I do get lonely at times, but people are generally too annoying to bother dealing with; not to mention, often getting talked over makes my opinions feel less important, and I hold out on important information until I can negotiate an agreement, or more like extort a balance of circumstance); also doesn't help when even good friends aren't good enough to count as time passes, especially with a few hindsights being considered (like one of my best friends since elementary school outranked all my bullies, and did nothing about it; especially since the school obviously wouldn't. How do I handle it myself, negotiate, and come up with schemes to bail myself out, and maybe cause some devastation/collateral damage on the way out as payback and still come off as the good guy with right to be on the right side (like an anti-hero)).
Pardon my rant. I don't trust anybody because I've been betrayed/disappointed so often, I lost count. I mean, I actually believe that the most evil thing that can exist is something made of pure good. Because if one can be all good and everyone falls for it, then they have the upper hand on everything, and can manipulate absolutely everything before them
. Actually makes me believe that girls made a decent point about not trusting Nice Guys, and always putting them in last place for a good reason (mostly to humble them).