I love reading internet mombo jumbo. Which questions your presence on a forum, but hey who am I saying.
You want to know something again? I'm in a very very similar environment/situation as you, I am admitting right now that I have no real life friends to hang out with, I've never had some other school friend over my house ever before. When I'm not out in public with work, school, or a social event that someone else always asks me out to I am at home just being chill. I spend most of my days chatting on Steam, posting on Bay12, and reading interesting topics that I'm interested in.
If you want me to be more direct you need to stop boring yourself and have fun with your life style. If you don't like your life style...CHANGE IT UNTIL YOU DO.
I saw that coming. That right there:
"You want to know something again? I'm in a very very similar environment/situation as you"
I knew you we're going to say that. I knew you we're going to use that card.
Because everyone does. It's not like its not true, its just everyone says that.
"Oh I was just like you then I started to stop being a douche and made friends"
"I used to have no friends, then I stopped being a douche and presto chango I'm now a guy with friends."
No offense, it's just it changes nothing. You don't know the people I know, you don't have my life, you can't just make friends. Not after what I've done.
Which brings me to this:
But it's really hard to be nice to people who have hated you since you purposely fucked up your entire life back in 2nd grade.
What'd you do in 2nd grade?
Well long story short, (simply because I hate typing and can't remember most of it.), I starting being a douche to purposely piss people off after realizing what douches everyone is.
Recently I've tried to stop that. Guess what I subconsciously started doing. Choking people.
Haha see it's fun, I don't call you an idiot, and instead I physically harm you for 3 seconds before realizing what i've done then stop myself! Haha so much fun.
6 years of pent up rage can do that.
You want to know something again? I'm in a very very similar environment/situation as you, I am admitting right now that I have no real life friends to hang out with, I've never had some other school friend over my house ever before. When I'm not out in public with work, school, or a social event that someone else always asks me out to I am at home just being chill. I spend most of my days chatting on Steam, posting on Bay12, and reading interesting topics that I'm interested in.
If you want me to be more direct you need to stop boring yourself and have fun with your life style. If you don't like your life style...CHANGE IT UNTIL YOU DO.
I couldn't have (and didn't) put it better myself.
Like I said before, I have ONE friend. ONE. I have done things to keep myself occupied that no man should ever do just because he's bored.
On the subject of friends, and I know I may be a little harsh here, but, maybe try not being so negative of other people/things. There's a reason why you're on my ignore list.
Haha that's a funny thing right there. You see, I actually thought we we're acquaintances. One would dare say friends.
Why? Hell if I fucking know. Probably because you didn't instantly start hating me the second I posted anything.