I'm just a little bothered by my daily loneliness. I was just thinking: it's much harder being lonely in winter, because the cold feels so much colder. I go to visit my Mom, Sister, and Niece; I want to give my sister a hug, but she is too busy lying in bed and on her phone to give me a hug or anything. I want to give my Niece a hug, especially since she has the potential to be the last granule of sanity in my life, but she's just a baby and she's sleeping. My Mom is more than willing to hug me, but my lifetime of resentment towards her makes interacting with her something I have to endure.
Being back home, it's very hard to enjoy anything by myself when it's tinged through with my dissatisfaction with life. I had some games I wanted to play with online friends, but they're all busy or sick. I have to restrain myself from getting angry with them, because I know it's not their fault, I just want to hang out with someone.
I have an interview tomorrow for a receptionist position. I hope my hair isn't too long to seem unprofessional, and I hope I can remember how to behave myself in a professional environment. I sometimes feel like my knowledge and skills are leaking out of my ears, so I seriously hope I can put my best foot forward and impress them enough to get this job. I'm kinda running out of opportunity in this city.