My current Doctor is putting my health at risk by prescribing dangerous medications when there are better options, but he refuses to listen to me and going off the medications would be significantly worse for my short term health. This is the 4th Doctor I've gone to for this stuff, so it's not like it would be easy to just find a better one.
I'm trying to get in to see a specialist, but that takes forever and I've been waiting for ages. I also can't convince him to perscribe me antidepressants, so I'm going to a separate person to get those and I still haven't been able to find ones that work.
I can barely get out of the house, if fact I have trouble even standing up at the moment, and even if I do I need to carry bottles of nutrient mix or I might pass out. My body is noticeably decaying and I've lost the ability to heal from minor injuries. And on top of that I need to get a job because currently I'm broke and stuck at home with my abusive parents who won't even acknowledge that there is anything wrong with me right now.
I should also probably be seeing a therapist for my C-PTSD, executive dysfunction disorder, anxiety, depression, and possibly autism and AVPD. And maybe some other mental illnesses too, who knows. But ha, why would I be able to do that.
And also I should do something about my extreme dysphoria at some point. That would be nice.
I've also been through one abusive relationship and at least 5 toxic friendships in the last few years. So that's been fun.
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